i wish i'd heard it

i hope it was fun

i wish i had some junk food
i really want junk food right now
i mean
not enough to go out in the cold for it
but still

in previous christmas seasons
i ate stollens and whatnot
but this year
what i've wanted
was cheetos

i didn't even have
a pumpkin spice latte
or
an eggnog latte
like at all

i
hurt myself at work today
i wasn't sure how bad
i smashed my finger in some shopping carts
i'd been using them to move stuff around
and i needed to clear them up and put them away
because i had to punch out and go home

i again reduced the beer section

anyway
it really hurt
and it's probably good that i haven't taken the blood thinning things
for a couple days

but
i had like a flashback to when i smashed my hand in the folding stool
and when my mom slammed my hand in the car door
and i was sure i'd get a blood blister
or fuck myself up real bad somehow
but i iced it right away
and took an aleve and an ibuprofren
to reduce inflamation
and
it seems fine
i was icing it down
and i'm all like:

look, i think this is probably going to be fine
every time i've badly damaged myself
i could pretty much tell right away
but
if there's some incident report that we need to fill out
i'd like to do it
just in case i get a blood blister, or need some kind of medical intervention
i'd like workman's comp to cover that

turns out they call it in now
do we have to do that now

no, dennis says, we've got 24 hours

ok, great
blahblahblah
more conversation

but
when it happened i could see it turning purple
and i was concerned
because my bruises generally develop over time
i thought:  shit, this is gonna be bad

but
the ice was a good instinct
because it has faded
it's just pink now
and, if i didn't point it out
you might not even notice it

yay me