also, i forgot completely i was gonna tell you about this

when i was little
i was forever getting splinters
or
ya know, whatever
and i lived with my grandmother
and, for some period of time
her mother was living there too
but when my gran gran went into the hospital
to have her cataract surgery
her brothers came and put their mother into a nursing home
anyway
that's kind of sad
and it isn't about that
that's just kind of background
that my great grandmother was living there with me too, briefly
and she may have
in fact i think she was
the instigator of

the poultice

whenever i got anything in my foot
there would be a poultice slapped on it
with double socks
and
i'm tellin ya
that shit worked

it felt extremely yucky
but it would pull whatever out of wherever
and
many times since i've been an adult
i have wished i had learned how to make em

i know it was made from flax
i assume flax meal
because it wasn't seedy
it was mushy
and kinda slimy
and hat's what flax is like

i don't remember it smelling like anything in particular
so, maybe no herbs or essential oil
then again
this was like three-ish
so
maybe i just don't remember the smell
and
it could have had castor oil or linseed oil, maybe
but it could also just be the flax

my gran gran was a firm believer in hydrogen peroxide and triple antibiotic
deborah was a believer in monkey blood (Mercurochrome) 
my mom liked bactine

i apparently came down on the side of hydrogen peroxide
but not necessarily triple antibiotic
i tend more toward just straight hydrogen peroxide
since i'm not much for bandages
unless i'm working
then they are to keep contaminants out of the wound site

but i was surprised once
my mom hurt herself
and i'm all like where's your hydrogen peroxide
and she's like
no, i don't use that, it kills tissue

that surprised me
if it killed tissue
my entire body would be one big lump of dead flesh
i swear to you
it's perfectly safe

i like tea tree oil too
and tamanu oil
and
i really should give neem more play
but it smells kind gross
and it's thick and gloopy

maybe this isn't interesting
but
ya know
i was thinkin about it

goodnight sweetheart