it might not make any sense, but i feel less depressed

i went to two petsmarts
i saw him at the first one
he's not that dramatic looking of a cat
sitting in a cage
and he seemed older
but he's only about a year old

his sign said
he was rescued from the pound on the day before they were gonna kill him
that he almost died there from depression
because he lost his home and family

that made me stop
he was huddled in his cage
like:  i just gotta get through this--  distant
but when i opened the cage he came up to me
pushed into me as i petted him

he's a very muscular wiry cat
and it turns out
not too big
he seemed a lot bigger in the cage

he is lean
and muscular
and his fur isn't soft or sleek
but short and wiry and no nonsense
and i loved the feel of him
something powerful and bad ass but still affectionate

very different from buzz
and when i stopped petting him
closed the cage door
told him i needed to meet some of the other cats
he went back to his huddled pose
glaring:  i guess you're just like all the others

and
none of the other cats i met
did anything except make me compare the experience to him
and
i thought:  i should wait
think it over
be sure what i'm doing
because i thought i wanted a bottle fed baby kitten

but
in the end
i went back and got him
hopefully that's the right thing to have done