i have a bunch of thoughts

but i've had a bad headache all day
and it's muddling me

i wanted to straight up write you all these days
and
i'm feeling
kind of inspired
but
i can't pull it off tonight

i love you, am thinking of you

but right now
i'm thinking about the pavillion for japanese art
if we actually went there
walked around the galleries
went to the snack bar
talked about the rain with the older than me gay male couple
sipped coffee in the beautiful drizzle

would it have been just like that
how
..........zen
...................are
............................you