i'm sorry my darling

i thought if it was meant to be
we'd find each other
but
even if you wanted me
the people
and the sun
are too much for me
and i just feel beaten down
and i hardly got out of the car
i guess i'm not any fun any more
a place can't impress me
unless it is both
naturally beautiful
and
almost completely empty

i would turn around
i'm not that far
but
i don't believe you ever
expected to meet me
unless it was through
appropriate channels

maybe i'm wrong

i feel you very strongly all the same
i love you like wildfire
but
i'm crying a little
so close
and yet
so far