i can't remember

i know i had a bunch of dreams
but
what i was dreaming when i woke up
i guess
pushed everything else away

and
it doesn't make any sense
it's got to be symbolic

there was this girl
and i had somehow restrained her
so she was sort of planked out from a wall
she was naked
or, mostly naked
and tallish and thinish and blonde
not like beauty queen blonde
like oklahoma blonde
and not perfectly proportioned goddess
just a normal girl with smallish breasts
wider hips

and
she was pregnant
early pregnant
and i was feeling the lines of her
the way her body filled the space
lovingly
but not with prurient interest

at first she fought to get away
but then
she just relaxed
and let me