smoke dreams

i was travelling
going to a festival
i had the living out of the car thing
solid

but i'm not sure what kind of festival it was
but there was weed
and a bong
and
though it's been three years
i guess
i still remember how to inhale
hard and pulling deeply down
then clamping down
then relaxing
feeling the thc enter my bloodstream

there was more, i know there was more

i was selling something
but not at a booth
through some sort of centralized vendor
the girl running that told me:
none of your sales are going through
i adjusted something
something to do with communication lines
then everything went through

but
there was this girl
she was hanging all over me
really irritating me
her name was debbie
and i'm not really sure how to interpret this
but
she had her finger up my ass
right out in public
and
i didn't want to be in private with her
i wanted her to leave me alone
so
even though i was out in public
i removed her finger
and told her to keep her finger out of my ass


i find this section
kinda confusing
and marginally disturbing
how am i supposed to interpret that


then i was in a house
in a neighborhood that i wasn't too sure about
i'm not sure if i thought it was dangerous
or just that it was maybe really run down
but
it didn't really seem that run down
and there was a deck
which gave it a ship-like quality

i went out on the deck
other people were out on their own
so it had the feeling
of ships sailing in close proximity
and there was a sort of camaraderie
not too close
but comfortable

and the light had the most unusually quality
not as shady as dusk
but not as colorful as dawn

it was a bright darkness

and i could see

a lovely place
i hadn't known existed