i dreamed that i had worked as a psychedelics monitor

it was sort of a dream within a dream
the psychedelics monitor job
because
in the dream i was telling someone
about the past
but
i was also there
and
then i had a lucid dreaming moment
where i was trying to decide if i actually did that work
in reality
or if i just did it in the dream

i was in a little tiny closet
kind of a
being-john-malkovich-type closet
and i watched these people
all packed into this smallish room
bouncing off one another like bumper cars
vocalizing loudly
one guy was dressed as a rainbow clown
[that's probably because i saw that stupid double rainbow viral video]
i moved into the room
with all these people
who mostly didn't seem aware of one another
and i was overcome
like i was possessed by the spirit
of whatever they were on
and my tongue got weird
like it was twisted
or hard
or
like i had two of them
or
something
i couldn't talk
i had to resist the urge to
gag
or
bite

this whole thing was taking place
in an area of town
that i didn't use to have
it's
hard to define
the first definition that springs to mind
is like a red light district
but that's not really accurate
it's just that it's a business district
but really
it's not about display
it really reminds me more
of this bar i went to
maybe only once or twice
it was a leather bar
and it had a shop in front
for if you wanted leather stuff
but also
they had a dungeon area too
and
i mean
if you're setting up play dates at a dungeon
i'd think you'd have gear
but
you know
you might find a friend there
with a penchant for, say
snake bite kits
and be just fresh out
[being more of a clamp person yourself]
whatever, i digress
anyway
it was just a regular bar
perfectly normal
but when i walked through there
i could feel the energy
it was coiled
ready to spring
my friend m.jones really wanted me to get
into the community
but
i was more interested in it
that into it
really
but i guess
i kinda liked that he looked at me
and thought i could be an infamous dom
because i just didn't see it