check in april 8th

I'm unable to articulate 

what's happening in my HEAD 

I had a bunch of dreams I don't remember 

BUT 

ACTIVE 

working through things 

I'm continuing to go through stuff 

BUT 

not as quickly as I'd like 

I feel like something about 

narcissism & capitalism 

is trying to write itself into a new 1984 something 

in my HEAD 

& I DO remember a piece of dream

you and I

we're standing on a lawn

in front of a large shrubbery 

I feel like we were

DISCUSSING 

something 

& that there was a chance that it was possibly 

IMMANENT 

that we would fling ourselves 

into each other's arms

& then I woke up 

OR

possibly someone came up to ask a question 

& then I woke up

BUT 

there was some kind of interruption

I LOVE you VERY MUCH 

I'm gonna try to sleep now 

goodnight sweetheart 

check in april 7th

I was pretty distracted by 

t*ump & his civilization destruction threats 

I figured he would not go through with it

BUT 

I wasn't sure what he would do 

I feel like 

SOMEHOW 

this KINDA 

consumed my attention 

I had dreams 

BUT 

I could only remember 

right before I woke up 

SOMEBODY 

was right up in my face 

standing in front of me 

& SAID 

welcome elder

& it KINDA freaked me out 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I'm gonna try to sleep now

goodnight 

check in april 6th

I've had 

FOOL on the HILL 

in my HEAD 

several different times 

not continuously 

OH

I stopped writing 

& WANDERED 

OFF

in thought 

& NOW

I've got grieg 

is that hall of the mountain king

WHAT is THAT 

ABOUT