glow in the dark

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

& the thanksgiving pep talk

play it loud

exactly right 

goodnight ❤️

sorry haven't talked much

ya KNOW 

I've felt KINDA bad

about my avoiding jason through 

this whole period 

BUT 

today I saw he sent me more DMs

& I LOOKED at it 

BECAUSE 

I KINDA 

FELT 

BAD

but, remember how I told him it triggered me really bad when he said

dad would have been 

PROUD of my 

PAINTING 

yeah

MAYBE he didn't remember 

OR maybe he wanted to

TRIGGER me again 

because he said it again 

& then he said dad lives rent free in his head

& it's LIKE 

my dude, WTF

I find it hard to believe, though

that he isn't SMART enough 

you're magic

a surprising number of

sort of dreaming sh*t up

for me

ends in the creation of some sort

of communal something 

the festival land my dream referenced

was the community set up

to be the storyteller 

festival 

I'm very interested in 

your nested experience 

I'm not super talk-y

BUT 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I hope you are having a beautiful day 

I fell asleep typing this

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

I'm thinking more about max headroom these days*

the friction 

BETWEEN 

the things that culturally 

HIT different 

& the feeling that

it's ALL flying AWAY from my 

COMPREHENSION 

is running

like a background APP

in my HEAD that I've OLD SKOOL CYBERPUNK JACKED IN

I'm a

DISCHORD

SERVER

touch grass

*this was the first thing I wrote, I was sure it published, but clearly I was wrong 

I thought it had stopped putting them in the scheduling folder

the hair is 

excellent 

she's growing up 

more thoughts

it's beautiful 

the TIME TRAVEL beautiful 

that just trust your

OWN SOUL

because 

YOU 

KNOW 

but everything about

the WAY we SEE the world 

MAKES you 

DOUBT

yourself*

you don't even SEE it you're 

SOAKING in it

*and I'm using you here for the more direct feeling it gives, but I mean each of us 

people

let me tell you about the last protest I went to

I don't think I told you

THIS

there are a few people 

who are

PROTEST people 

they know sh*t is not right

EVER

BUT 

houston is not a "protest-y" place

it takes a LOT to get people 

OUT of CLIMATE control 

into the

HEAT

the people at the protest

they did not have 

pre-printed 

SIGNS 

I mean, of course SOME people had

VARIOUS pre-printed 

NO K!NGS signage

BUT 

it could NOT have been MORE obvious 

these were people who 

MOSTLY 

probably haven't been to a protest before 

MOSTLY 

don't even agree on what should be going on

LOTS

of speakers said things

NOBODY 

seemed all that

FIRED UP

UNTIL 

ANYONE said F*CK T*UMP

THEN

the WHOLE MASS of human

WHATEVER 

2001 the monkey hitting the other monkey

with the JAW BONE

THAT

ENERGY 

ALSO

F*CK *CE

I shoulda BEEN SLEEP

I guess I better get to sleep 

gotta sleep fast at this point

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

goodnight