hello -- I love you -- checking in

I'm checking in 

I felt like it might look like I was

pulling away or something yesterday 

I didn't mean to be doing that 

I just have stuff going on in my HEAD 

& I'm not sure what 

it even is 

MUCH LESS 

HOW to 

VERBALIZE it

BUT 

I'm figuring it out 

& I'm feeling 

generally 

HAPPY 

please take care of yourself 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 🫶 

I'm sorry I didn't talk today I can't even remember what I wanted to tell you about yesterday I think I'm a little out of the loop on what's going on in my HEAD

today was 

I'm not sure how to describe it 

I could not wake up

I just kept 

DREAMING 

& saying how grateful I am for my life 

I couldn't remember the dreams 

BUT 

there was some kind of superhero in an

ORANGE SUIT 

MIGHT 

have been 
ME

I feel like I did some

PROCESSING 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 🫶 

goodnight 

goodnight sweetheart good day

MAN

I REALLY want to TELL you 

ALL the STUFF 

I thought about 

TODAY 

BUT 

I'm not sure if I can 

& ANYWAY 

I want to tell you 

SOMETHING 

I have had that TUNE and I mean 

the whole song*

BUT 

the tune is SO catchy 

& my brain is doing this weird thing 

this morning I was hearing 

as TIME goes BY from casablanca in my HEAD 

& I KINDA 

heard that off and on most of the day

I SHOWERED 

washed my hair 

DROVE the CAR

I thought so MANY thoughts

& then I listened to it 

cause it was

ALREADY 

bubbling up 

& THEN it is ABSOLUTELY in there

& after LIKE maybe an HOUR I'm LIKE 

THOSE TWO are 

related

SOMEHOW 

& THEN

I started up the stairs

& my brain said 

inna godda da vida

was also related

& the THREE pieces

FORM some SORT of MUSICAL -- something 

it just seems right 

BUT 

I have no reason I can point to

JUST 

a pattern in my HEAD 

that KINDA thing

is hard to catch for some reason 

I mean for demonstration 

purposes

my brain is saying 

SYMPHONIC 

structure 

but that seems unlikely 

when I took music appreciation in college 

they had us mapping structure 

& I couldn't seem to DO THAT so I'm very skeptical 

the POINT is 

I think that's quite a lot of 

CATCHY

*the D&M collab

thoughts I thought I posted last night

I've been thinking about you all day 

I haven't been super focused 

just KINDA floating 

& then I'm thinking 

am I spacing out too much

am I NOT 

doing something 

BUT 

I'm not sure what I think I'm doing 

& I don't think this is super 

coherent 

& I still haven't listened to anything about the 

kidnapping 

BUT 

TOGETHER 

we are all america 

SO

I guess I got what I wanted 

from the superbowl 

half-time show

I watched some videos about how little sense INFJs make to normal people 

& it made me

WONDER 

I won't ask though 

because THAT might make me 

WORRY 

I'm not sure what I'm doing tomorrow 

BUT 

I'm doing something 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart