check in may 18th

TODAY 

it's letting me post 

what's up with that

I'm sad

& I keep hearing 

the sound clip of the buzzy kalimba

SO

what does that mean

I can't imagine that anything I said 

about myself was offensive 

& honestly I'm at a point where 

MAYBE 

I should be less concerned about being offensive 

BUT 

I don't understand why I'm sad

are you quitting me

I'm so weird

I'm guessing I'm right

BECAUSE 

I'm hearing 

under african skies

in my HEAD 

more thoughts

I had trouble posting 

& I decided 

THAT

was the universe telling me 

I needed to write 

on substack

& I was

going to

I was trying to figure out 

HOW 

& I started this thing

that I THOUGHT I liked

BUT 

then I got up

& I read a thing

& I went back to sleep 

& had some DREAMS 

& the dreams 

didn't make sense 

I don't know how much that influenced 

check in may 16th

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart

bespoke dances not social constructs

I found a video 

which 

finally explained for me

what I've been trying to explain 

for years

it really helped me 

ALSO

bespoke dances

tall in the saddle

after the dream of falling & calling your name out

these are the roots of rhythm 

& roots of rhythm remain 

the personal vibration 

the wave

of the person

is important to me 

I interact with that

it was a good day

I think it's an

EARWORM 

I've been hearing it

ALL day 

I think 

between all the permutations of

mbira/kalimba/kongoma/

etc

there are lots of 

sound variations 

I'm getting 

KINDA

like I got with chords

only I have more

EXCITEMENT 

it's supposed to ship tomorrow 

I have this

unified front of excitement 

ALL the PARTS 

are LIKE 

we play an instrument 

NOW 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I FEEL 

FUN-er

for a while

I don't think I've felt fun at all

for a while now

I'm like the full spectrum of 

the goofiest woody guthrie song he wrote for his kids about hanukkah to

some extended

julian cope

poet is 

priest

mix

&

I'm into it

I'm going to try to sleep 

YOU are MAGIC