what did he THINK about THAT
was it weird
is THIS
NOT
what he's looking for from me
instead of tarot
I thought
runes
let me ask the digital runes
because MAYBE that gives a bigger picture or something
the runes
we're a BAD IDEA
THORN & something else obstacle-y
unwanted, difficult, yucky
I'm LIKE
I MEAN, can it really be THAT bad
I feel like I've mentioned it before, not a secret, not never mentioned
BUT
maybe NOW is a bad time
MAYBE
it's offensive that I fell asleep while saying it
whatever
I asked the tarot
& it said
the LOVERS
& this explains why I ask the tarot
& NOT the runes
I feel like
the runes always
are always
telling me exactly what I don't want to hear
the tarot
OFTEN tells me something
ambiguous or that I don't understand
SOMETIMES it tells me what I want to hear
BUT
I never feel like it is just
f*CKing with me
MAYBE
it's just the facade runes that hate me
I just found another one
& it said GEBO
which is LIKE gift
but less specifically gift than
look for the best outcome
win/win
balance harmony
BUT
it always makes me think about
a manager trainee I had
at starbucks
I would always talk to the truck drivers who brought the plant order
they didn't work for starbucks
they worked for the freight company
BUT
they were bringing stuff in
I appreciated it
& it seemed
natural to talk to them
there was this one
he was having a hard time with life
so maybe I talked to him a little bit MORE
& this RMT (retail manager trainee)
(who I liked, btw)
she would always make me
SUPER uncomfortable
by saying
EVERY time
he looks like
he wants to give you "the gift"
which she had to
EXPLAIN to me
& I begged her to STOP because it made me
SO uncomfortable
BUT
I THINK
she THOUGHT
I was not being honest about the discomfort
just the WHOLE concept
the IDEA of giving someone
the IDEA that my being friendly was
GENERATING
something I needed to then
WORRY about
SO
MAYBE
that taints that runes too
I'm never sure how all that works
personal interpretation
& history
I think
MAYBE
a tool like that
is ONLY useful if you use it OFTEN
connect with the divination tool over time
if you just casually pick it up
maybe, with runes, it's got schadenfreude and it's LIKE
oooo let's f*CK with this b*tch
