I'm sorry I'm not talk-y today 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋

I gotta go to sleep 🫶

👾🫚

my mom 

said something to me

TODAY 

which surely 

she has said before 

BUT 

I'm not sure she has

it felt new

she said

I missed you

I am seeing my mom tomorrow 

I had a lot of good thinking 

TODAY

I've been trying to 

MASSAGE 

my neck & shoulders 

I had to eat

FIBER 

today 

I guess I normally eat

QUITE a bit 

BUT 

the all eggs all the time diet

had ZIPPO 

that PACHA bread 

has issues 

the bread slices

are UNMANAGEABLE 

in my FANCY f*CKing toaster

that adjusts to

ANY

size or shape

the english muffin configured

"BUNS"

TOAST fine

but have this even weirder taste 

it irritates me 

that it's all NOT QUITE enjoyable 

BECAUSE 

the taste is growing on me

& the smaller size

is better for 

the way I eat now

I've gone through 

HALF 

one of each

I had "buns" with peanut butter on

for brunch 

with the two asian pears I had left

I had "buns" with peanut butter 

& bone broth 

for dinner 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I'm slightly 

loopy 

I'm not sure why

I gotta go to bed 

💋🫶🫶👾🫚

that pub

sounds fun

I can never seem to get

fixed in my head

WHEN

is basketball season 

MARCH madness

BUT 

of course 

THAT is college

❤️

this is perhaps 

MORE of

an ASSEMBLAGE 

& I need to clean the glass & stuff

it's from nineteen ninety two

I matted & framed it

MYSELF 

I had access to a mat cutter at that time

I was living in the attic 

and there's a turning

vent thingy in the roof

&

a little baby bird

falls through 

my cat

MOON

was Johnny on the spot

& I had a little trouble 

getting the

BABY 

BIRD

away from him

BUT 

I DID 

the whole experience 

had this

FEELING 

about it

& I made this to remember it

the larger white "paper"

I made from

FIBERS 

I bought from a weaver

I had taken a workshop 

at texas art supply 

to lean to do that

TECHNIQUE 

not that long before that

I still love this piece

& the color palette 

BUT 

it never seem to "match" anything in my house 

so I rarely have it hanging 

I am going to 

HANG it

SOMEWHERE 

THIS 

is the piece I was talking about showing you 

I hope you are having a beautiful day sweetheart 

🫶

I forgot to tell you 

that last FASCIA thing

in my back & side

I KNOW 

I told you that

my turn range of motion 

GREATLY increased

BUT 

I just realized 

I used to have to stand on top toe

to reach the ceiling fan pull

NOW 

I just reach up

I can reach it easily 

BUT 

my neck and shoulders are gonna 

HAVE to be NEXT 

&

I THINK 

that's likely to be 

BAD

my scalp

is SO tight

I can't even move the skin around 

I've got to loosen up 

BUT 

my pain levels are down 

otherwise 

so much so that I haven't taken

an ibuprofen 

or acetaminophen

in LIKE 

a month 

& I'm pretty sure 

from the shoulders up

PAIN

is how

I USED to feel

EVERYWHERE 

SO

it's REALLY noticeable 

NOW 

that it HURTS 

because 

when everything is on

too much

you KINDA numb out

in a weird kinda way

LIKE 

EVERYTHING HURTS 

BUT 

there's a WAY 

you don't 

FEEL it

SPECIFICALLY 

JUST 

overall 

& it's all

FOCUSED 

on whatever is causing the problem 

RIGHT NOW 

BUT 

THIS 

has COMPARISON 

which apparently I don't SO MUCH enjoy

🫶😁🫶

👾🫚

I fell down another rabbit hole 

I decided I need

a warmer hat

I don't like

my touque

I saw this cashmere baseball cap

& didn't want that

BUT 

was kinda like

something similar to that

but different 

& I have maybe found it

have you ever heard

of a

STORMY KORMER

I WISH I looked good in hats

I NEVER think I look good in hats

BUT 

baseball caps

look okay

on me

if

the brim is curved enough

with the meno

my temperature regulation 

is just not that good

& I ALWAYS got

COLD easily

I find that image

complicated and intriguing 

I see something 

& I think I see

that there's 

MORE 

BUT 

I can't see the more YET, not really 

because I see what I see

I need to go to sleep 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋

goodnight 🫶 

👾🫚

❤️