Sarah Rose 

the ice cream queen 

SOLD OUT SHOTGUN 

I mention it to Michael 

THIS is the FIRST 

I'm hearing about it

TK

bitching about the NATs

SOCCER ⚽ copa america 

WOMEN'S soccer ⚽ 

is BETTER 

in America 

thank you for having me do this twice

the INTERN likes

the bagel sandwich

which involves sausage

which I don't know why

that kinda grossed me out

I don't know what I thought 

they needed to keep warm

I just didn't think

as much as I like lox

I usually 

KINDA eat that separately 

for me

bagel + cream cheese

no EXTRA 

I GUESS I'm minimalist in my bagel enjoyment 

goodnight sweetheart 💋

I LOVE you VERY much 💋👾🫚❤️

the empty space on her wall

is for some little one

that are at the studio

&

I look fatter

to me

in that picture 

than I THINK 

I am

I have not been weighing 

but

I look thinner

NAKED

&

I was leaning back weird

to get the shot

BUT 

I AM STILL fat

just normal fat

 not SCARY fat

AND 

CPTSD 

has some overlap 

with borderline 

& I was ALWAYS like

I don't have ANY

black and white thinking 

it's ALL gray

&

I DON'T split

I see the best and the worst

SOMETIMES 

specifically separated out

usually not

BUT 

even then

STILL 

at the same time

ie. NOT splitting 

ALSO 

I don't think I have 

all this

self hatred stuff 

BUT 

EMOTIONAL FLASHBACK -- that seems right

the smell of lighter fluid

was palpable 

on the 

WALK

to my mom's 

GOOD morning sweetheart 💋 

I hope you are doing well 

I'm not SURE what that dream was about

was that last night?

or the night before?

I KNOW last night

I was up and down

all night

HOT

then COLD

temperature regulation 

is a problem 

STILL 

BUT 

since I live in a SUPER HOT place

I guess I'm happy 

that I skew

COLD FLASH*

*although still night sweats

I'm telling you

the whole woman stack is whack

do not recommend 

have a beautiful day sweetheart 🌼

I will say

even though the election

SEEMS

in peril

I do NOT FEEL 

that impending DREAD

that I have felt

SOMETIMES 

when actual peril has been 

ABOUT to OCCUR 

SO

if the psychic thing

has any merit*

*which I'm not sure about 

then everything will be

OK

or at least okay-adjacent 

I REALLY 

HOPE 

the chatter

I'm hearing from EVERY direction

is not good

🙏🙏🙏🤞🤞🤞🙏🙏🙏

OK

I hope you are doing well 

I don't know if 

I'm just tired 

or

if my mom

and whatnot just mentally exhausted me

or

WHAT 

but I am wrecked

& I'm going to bed

there is a TK

she's got Justin coming in the morning 

to hang all the high

artwork 

in her apartment 

& I've gotta be there to supervise 

or whatever 

there's WEATHER coming

hopefully not a hurricane here

they are projecting 

MEXICO 

but

they often change direction 

when they hit land

&

it's going across the Yucatan peninsula 

SO

WHO can SAY, really 

I did take allergy medicine 

which I usually don't 

SO

maybe that has

SOMETHING to do with it 

I miss you 🫶

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you VERY much 

❤️👾🫚🌀⚡

OK

I went to the bank

I dropped sh*t off at goodwill 

now

I'm gonna go do sh*t

at my mom's 

I hope you are having a beautiful day sweetheart 💋 I LOVE you VERY much ❤️

I dreamed just now

my mom got an ambassador job

a woman

from the state dept

gave me a file

I was distracted 

&

left the file in a room

with people 

I came back

it was

EMPTY 

I got so distracted

looking for a way

to make that better

I was going to hear youj

& was very late

everyone was in bedsheets

and

it wasn't 

a lot of people 

I was

distressed

THAT is when I woke up

going back to sleep

I'm going to bed

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you VERY much ❤️👾🫚🫶

darius

sings the mailbag

I USED to drink grasshoppers

when I was a kid

mailbag

addresses the INTERN

ep 283

james wood

fingers in the dikes?

did they delay him

for contract

reasons*

*wednesday ellis 

I love BASEBALL geekiness

lane thomas 

Harvey

finnegan 

first base

third base

don't sign Paul george

the preening of sprinters

is a special kind

of

walk up 

SONG*

*will you

be