when I say
I can't miss you anymore
I think that means
I need to see you
BUT
I'm so paranoid
I ask Google
& it says
that means
I'm breaking up with you
I want
NOT
to do that
unless you're through with me
Tuesday, June 9, 2026
Thursday, June 4, 2026
if this posts then I guess it posts
you have a better person to be
your keeper
you have a better person to be
your bright spot
you're not my daddy
you don't need to wait around
for me to figure out my sh*t
WHY
anything we could have
would jeopardize
something
that does more for you
as your friend
if I am your friend
FLY be free
I'll figure out my sh*t
I guarantee
I'm more trouble than I'm worth
I'm all the things you said
it hurts
BUT
it's FAIR
I LOVE you VERY much
I hope you have
all your dreams come true
Monday, June 1, 2026
I have little belief that this will post, but if it does it's a sign
I thought
THIS
was what you wanted
that you were saying you wanted to
like forever be here for THIS
& that you were trying to
let me see that you
were really
committing to some
life of the mind
with me
I thought there was some
possibly
that you wanted
to get to know me irl
to see
BUT
I thought
when this went down
I needed to TRY to maintain
SO
I tried to use other channels
I wasn't gonna be all
bare my soul
in public
although I kinda did
BUT
you don't really
LIKE me, I think
MAYBE
I'm somehow more an IDEA
which I would say is
FAIR
except I've been baring my soul to you for twenty something years
I needed to focus on my own head
for a minute
& the universe broke my blog
to give me the opportunity
& you immediately
realize you are
done with me
SO
MAYBE
that was what needed to happen
I hope that was true
that you were
BETTER
thank you for breaking my brain
thank you for being there
making me feel
loved and cared for
thank you
I LOVE you VERY much
I'm sorry
I wasn't enough
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