test check in may 25th

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I didn't know it would let me post

I just wanted to say

I LOVE you 

🫶

I

LOVE 

YOU 

since it's posting let see if it keeps posting

I have she's so heavy 

stuck in my head 

not the whole song

just that line over and over again 

& I don't know how to interpret that 

I hope this posts because I've already written it

I think I missed 

a lot of 

POSTS

I was working

& I wasn't 

paying much attention 

because I was in a

I don't know what is going on with me thing

which I thought I told you

BUT 

maybe I didn't 

I wasn't trying to be an *ssh*le

I'm just trying to get my own head together 

I am sorry that I didn't keep up 

& probably didn't let you know properly

what was going on with me 

I have reduced capacity to figure out what is 

going on & I really need to figure things 

out 

I'm sorry 

if I've ruined it

please know I love you

& I didn't mean to hurt you

I really did honestly think

I had communicated

why I was not engaging as much

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

test -- it's working now so I'll post this although I'm still not sure I have any idea what's going on

I've been throwing things away

I'm FOCUSING on 

getting to

a point

I thought you want me to be

BUT 

NOW

I'm not certain I'm right 

I had a dream about you 

you were whispering 

to me

I thought I understood 

BUT 

I've been kinda messed up in my head

with getting myself 

ME

I need a little TIME focused on me

to get me to the point where

I can do the stuff I need to DO 

PLUS 

this thing only sometimes posts

BUT 

I NOW see that

I might have been wrong 

about what I thought was going on

I'm not sure where I lost the thread

I'm not sure 

WHAT

you think I've said 

I THOUGHT 

it's a beautiful 

country

I'm confused though

I LOVE you VERY much 

I have only ever wanted you to be happy 

I'm sorry if I messed that up

test - ok since it'll let me post - check in may 20th

I really don't know why this thing

posts sometimes 

& doesn't post

other times 

I really do think

it's the universe trying to get me to

do or not do things

BUT 

it's erratic and 

STRANGE

I had

what felt like 

QUANTUM entanglement 

pretty strongly 

I'm using my thumb nails to play

because thumbs aren't loud enough 

& hurt

but it's slower & not as accurate 

SO

if I'm going to improve 

I'm wondering if 

duct tape

might work 

anyway

I like some it

BUT 

I guess the limited palate of notes

does give a more limited

range of notes

I was just surprised because they

SOUNDED more different 

when I was recording them

I love the wa wa sound

the buzz is sometimes great

& sometimes a little much

I hope you are having a beautiful day 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I might be getting a handle on the sleep cycle

I'm not sure if that's the thing to do

or not

the PROCESSING 

or has been 

better

BUT 

maybe it isn't now

I was feeling like I was making good progress 

but I had this last little bit 

hasn't felt like progress

it doesn't feel like 

I know what's going on 

which is a little scary