stuff about my evening

also

kornacki primary results 

I guess it was

st patrick's 

& I ignored it as I mostly have 

the last time I went out for st patrick's*

*unless I was somehow out without being aware that it was st patrick's 

was LIKE 

twenty eleven 

I went to Fitzgerald's

somebody from work was having a 

SOMETHING 

it was semi- chill

TODAY

I watched Steve kornacki

tell me about illinois

the ANTI- ICE candidate 

won over the "established" candidate

BUT 

I don't think 

kat abu won

I like this configuration much better than 

the old MSNBC model

this is just him and his producer 

talking about counties

it's LIKE 

when they talk about

baseball player stats 

forty percent of the time 

in this configuration 

I really groove to that

number crunchy 

chit chat

or however you would describe that

I didn't clean through stuff 

I got overwhelmed 

I've had a headache 

& the changing weather is 

aggravating my sinuses 

BUT 

I've had a pretty good day anyway 

I hope you had a good day TOO 

I'm going to try to sleep now

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I think I'm still caught up 

trying to 

think

about clara's return to rwandan 

bog standard

scottsmen

I feel like I might learn 

I also probably 

should respond in some meaningful messages 

tied myself up ---too many variables 

am I even making sense at this point

---doubtful 

I do love a navaho rug on a cold night

goodnight sweetheart 🫶 

more thoughts

I am ALSO obsessed with 

PALMISTRY 

I feel like 

ALL

the palmistry is 

COMPLETELY --- not telling me what I want to KNOW 

ALSO

death & justice

CARDS

OH

and probably judgement and the tower 

BUT 

I got myself 

DISTRACTED 

with the IDEA of them all being

like VINTAGE neon

or maybe 

SIGNS

check in march 17th

I DECIDED 

I wanted to go to 

I was trying to talk myself into

couldn't quite make myself go to the

unitarian church

that I'm trying to convince myself is walking distance 

AND

I'm just NOT buying

ANY

of

THAT 

& THEN I remembered there's a UNITY 

and I thought about that 

AND

I wasn't BUYING THAT either 

you HAVE to interact with people 

SO I thought 

MAYBE 

buddhists, maybe 

I'm finding 

some interesting stuff 

I'm not really sure what I'm looking for 

I've shut down 

I'm looking for people I would enjoy to be around 

I haven't tried buddhists yet 

there's a place

really close

that was started by 

a religion 

professor 

and 

a therapist 

it's supposed to be tibetan buddhism 

AND

there's a  ---nam myoho renge kyo

really pretty close 

there's the zen center 

in the heights 

& I've known about that

didn't THINK I'd like it

SEEMS

I'm not sure whether to say

intimidating &/or off- putting 

there's this

I MEAN 

it's in a beautiful old house

in a neighborhood of

EXPENSIVE 

houses

it's all beautiful 

BUT 

it's TOO MUCH too far

it feels too SERIOUS maybe 

I thought about it 

YEARS AGO

I didn't WANT to go 

the tibetan one

I have no idea

well, that's not true

I watched some videos 

I'm not sure 

I watched the people who lead the meditation 

I'm not sure I love the chant

I think I'd rather learn it

in tibetan 

the chanting 

SHOULD REALLY BE

the cool part

BUT 

they seem like

REAL people 

they're 

TALKING to the 

ASSEMBLED

group 

like they are capable of 

& YET 

I don't really KNOW what I WANT 

if I WANT the SHOW

or the people 

I guess I WANT a SHOW in the SENSE that 

I WANT a KINDA 

ritual something something 

I ALWAYS kinda

wanted that

BUT 

I could never really find it anywhere 

& I stopped looking years ago

BUT 

it's necessary for the rebuild 

I gotta interact with 

the FRAMEWORK 

I'm not sure

WHY

check in march 16th-ish

I'm sorry 

it's like my mind was

WORKING on an SOMETHING 

& I just didn't 

TALK 

I'm not

SURE what it's doing 

NOT just ONE thing

I THINK 

I love the way the slow banjo sounds

& I'm slipping 

into the nooks & crannies in the narrative 

by which I mean

I don't know what I think 

about all the

directions I'm running with it

I'm ALSO 

really thinking about 

TIME TRAVEL 

which I haven't done in a while 

I started the sunflower seeds 

I cleaned some 

I listened to

some videos about the RED BOOK*

*carl jung

some videos with handpan

edgar casey predictions of 2026

my dad was super into

edgar casey

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I'm gonna try to sleep now 

ps -- it's cold again -- weird

I'm gonna try to sleep

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much