better check in, maybe but the skincare team says they're killing it

SO

my question now is 

HOW 

do I deal with the 

STUFF 

without going off the deep end again

I MEAN 

I feel more solidly 

ME

& I EXPECT 

THAT

will help

BUT 

that part of my mind that always 

LIKE 

tries (sp?) to CONNECT the special interests

is all like 

psst --- it's not an empathy engine

stories based on mythic fairytale 

mission from g*d

CORRUPTION 

in the world

NARCISSISM 

religion 

weaving all the bits together 

this may or may not be clear enough to make sense 

it seems like a possible 

SOMETHING 

MAYBE 

maybe it's just me solving puzzles in my HEAD 

BUT 

I was contemplating 

HOW 

in case I could 

& I watched this video about language trends

& HOW it's CHANGING all the time 

ENGLISH was supposed to be dying 

it's the fastest growing language 

BECAUSE 

people all over the world want to watch 

english language videos

FRENCH 

second fastest language 

AFRICA 

& then ALSO in africa 

NIGERIAN pidgin

is growing 

FAST

because in nigeria they speak like five hundred languages 

SO

they're using nigerian pidgin

the way swahili is used regionally

& french --- in different regions 

BUT 

it's LIKE the MOST amazing 

SLANG 

& the rhythm

& the melodiousness

JARA

check in april 17th

I haven't listened to TK yet

I'm going to 

BUT 

I was in a mindset I'm trying to 

REINFORCE

& I can't 

enter into other mindsets while I do that

PROBABLY 

I will listen tomorrow 

BUT 

I did a thing I'm pretty excited about 

& even though you are unlikely to be super excited about it I want to share

ulta is having a sale 

it ends soon 

SO 

I was looking to see if anything I need

was on a good sale

& some things were

& I left something in my cart

& they sent me a 10% off coupon 

which surprisingly 

was usable on 

SALE items

& I have points

between the sale & the coupon & the points

I got months worth of skincare 

two hundred & sixty some dollars worth 

for eight dollars and eighty eight cents

I'm pretty impressed with that 

april 16th

I was thinking about 

those giant

BELT BUCKLES

that were

popular when I was a kid

& then I saw you

in some wrangler boot cut jeans

this elaborate toolwork belt

with the enormous 

BUCKLE 

your shirt

instead of being a western shirt 

was a kinda drapey

SILK

muscle shirt

& a straw hat --- like generic cowboy hat shape 

not spaghetti western flat

BUT 

it MIGHT 

have been 

trampled by something 

& then forced back into shape

& you are in that

james dean in giant

POSTURE 

that's either completely relaxed indifference

or arranged to show off attributes 

to elizabeth taylor 

I'm not sure WHY

goodnight sweetheart I LOVE you VERY much 

this came to me and I liked it thought I'd share, sleep now, goodnight sweetheart I LOVE you VERY much --- check in april 15th

It was like a backflip.  Graceful.  Arcing trustfall into the subconscious.  Sometimes the only way to know something was to feed it through the subconscious and let the dreams tell you.  Either that, or it was more complicated than that.

The bass line to Seven Nations Army boomed up through her body until it got caught up somewhere in the base of her skull.