thoughts

I just saw somewhere that 

carlos santana is joining 

BAD BUNNY 

at the superbowl 

& that

the shadow halftime or whatever it's called 

with kid rock is last minute cancelled 

I haven't vetted it

SO

MAYBE none of it is true 

BUT 

if it is TRUE 

that's ALL good 

I don't know much about bad bunny 

because I'm not caught up on all the younger stuff 

to be honest

I might not be able to pick kid rock out of a lineup 

BUT 

I saw santana at the TEXAS JAM

LIKE 

forty years ago 

in the astrodome 

& I mean 

I probably went to see joan Jett

BUT 

I KNEW santana 

BUT 

honestly 

the dome was filled with pot smoke

& I had never smoked

& I think I got a contact high

& it changed my relationship with 

santana's music 

it's connected to the energy flow of the universe 

or some sort of magical system

it's almost enough to 

make me want to watch the superbowl 

BUT 

I'm sure it'll be watchable separately 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 🫶 

I hope you are having a beautiful day 

goodnight sweetheart

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I probably didn't talk enough 

I've been processing 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I'm going to try to sleep 

🫶

ps

she's very grown up 

you are the best

I am so wanting to 

HEAR

what is going on with 

it SEEMS like 

there would be news

BUT 

my sense of how long things take 

doesn't seem well mapped

at least in terms 

of things I don't know much about 

&

just know I'm interested in knowing 

even just seeing you

is SO grounding 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 🫶 

lost connection intermission and more tea

OK

I moved my phone and screwed up the connection 

SO

I figured I'd check in again

I think you're pretty awesome 

I've been brushing over the news pretty lightly 

BUT 

it's all pretty 

BAD

&

I've been spending a lot of time thinking about 

HOW something CHANGED in the world 

&

something CHANGED in ME 

&

KINDA

HOW 

do those things map together 

&

I was just thinking about vaudeville the other day 

which may or may not be related to any of that

check in

I'm sorry 

I was sure I had the time right

I think the new 

is beautiful 

I'm going back to the beginning 

BUT 

I want to THINK about 

some already in progress thoughts

& make another tea

before I do

🫶

hello sweetheart

I slept really late

I don't remember clearly what I was dreaming 

BUT 

at least part of it

was some sort of building plan

I remember saying 

we could add free-standing buildings 

on the corners

make a quadrangle 

my HEAD hurts 

I'm congested-y

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I hope you are having a beautiful day 

2/6-7 notes

I'm in a weird-ish place today 

I'm really grateful for

the amount I have

been able to

GROW

in THIS period 

where I KINDA lost my mind a little bit 

I'm not certain 

HOW 

sane I am at this point 

I FEEL like 

I experience THINGS in a strange way 

& I'm not SURE 

if I'm supposed to MAKE that

MORE concrete

AM I too DISTANT 

TOO in my HEAD 

or is THAT exactly HOW I'm supposed to be 

& I JUST need to figure out how I fit in

I FEEL like I've changed a LOT 

I FEEL like the DIRECTION 

is MORE OUTSIDE 

more nature

MORE 

ONE with the UNIVERSE 

& I'm looking around wondering

can I sell any of this stuff 

WILL I sell any of it

I don't know the answer 

I WANT 

a very minimalist 

VIBE 

BUT 

I also have stuff that I'm pretty attached to

 

OR

am I 

goodnight status update

no alcohol yesterday or today 

no ibuprofen yesterday or today 

the knees are doing pretty good 

I'm going to go to sleep 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I had a part in the mission statement thing-y 

-- I do not let myself be pulled away from what nourishes me --

I wonder if

-- I crave what nourishes me --

isn't a better direction 

I don't -- seems a bit negative --

I'm not a huge fan of crave

it's a little cupcake chain-y for me

I don't dislike it as much as

COMFORTABILITY

goodnight sweetheart