Saturday, April 4, 2026

check in april 4th

I've been thinking about 
all the stuff I've been 
going through 
although maybe going through sounds dramatic 
& I'm not trying to be dramatic 
BUT 
I'm not sure WHY I had to do all that
I FEEL like I DID 
BUT 
I can't really 
EXPLAIN 
WHY

I'm having SO MUCH better FOCUS 
with the improved nervous system 
& I really feel like 
I'm making progress 

I dreamed about 
a BIG ship
not super close
to the street full of shops and restaurants 
it was dry docked and I kept looking over at it
trying to figure out what it was there for
what it meant
& there kept being 
BLACK SMOKE 
was it coming from the ship
& how should I interpret 
the smoke
there was MORE 
conversations
maybe shopping 
maybe meals
BUT 
I can't remember 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 
I hope you are having a beautiful day 🫶 

Friday, April 3, 2026

check in april 3rd

HEY
were you with me last night/this morning 
I thought I felt you
& I felt held

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 
I hope you are having a beautiful day 

Thursday, April 2, 2026

check in april 2nd

I went through things
moved furniture around 
& lugged stuff
to the dumpster 
THEN 
I went & had a lie-down
& fell asleep 
THEN
I woke up
ate something 

& I've been 
measuring things
& thinking 
& watching videos 

BUT 
I haven't gotten any more accomplished 
my head hurts
so I'm probably going back to sleep soon 

pebbles are beautiful 
& so are you
goodnight sweetheart 
I LOVE you VERY much