check in april 3rd

HEY

were you with me last night/this morning 

I thought I felt you

& I felt held

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I hope you are having a beautiful day 

check in april 2nd

I went through things

moved furniture around 

& lugged stuff

to the dumpster 

THEN 

I went & had a lie-down

& fell asleep 

THEN

I woke up

ate something 

& I've been 

measuring things

& thinking 

& watching videos 

BUT 

I haven't gotten any more accomplished 

my head hurts

so I'm probably going back to sleep soon 

pebbles are beautiful 

& so are you

goodnight sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

check in april 1st

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I feel like I was in some kind of 

FLUX

I can't make any of it 

coherent 

I'm starting a shaolin audible book

I need to sleep 

I'll try to be

coherent 

TOMORROW 

🫶

up late picking

I'm not asleep yet

I NEED to QUIT picking at my face

I found out

it's a form of stimming

I'm not certain whether what I'm doing is stimming or more of a neurotic thing

BUT 

IF

it's stimming 

it OUGHT to be 

plug & play switched

for a DIFFERENT 

STIM

that spinning I used to do

ALSO 

possibly 

STIMMING