notes march 28th

they didn't have porta-cans

we're using the library 

SO

standing in line

this woman wearing a vest - thing 

SAYS

safety marshal

or something like that 

TELLING them -- it's like a bookclub 

THAT'S the atmosphere 

it's LIKE 

we're standing around talking about the CONSTITUTION 

& it reminded me of bill hicks

I understood what he meant KINDA 

when he said 

MAYBERRY 

with three

MILLION 

people 

somehow, I GOT it TODAY

March 28th check in

I expect this no kings to be

BIGGER 

I'm not sure what the actual numbers were 

we walked all the way down to the 

I think it's a bayou

if you keep going 

you end up

at UH

downtown 

BUT 

I knew it was further before I could SEE it

my knee was like

WTSF b*tch

& I'm hobbling a bit

it was a little 

different 

I thought about you a lot

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I might not say a lot today I'm processing a lot

good morning/day/ check in sweetheart 

I LOVE you VERY much 

you took me by surprise 

I'm not sure what 

to tell you yet

BUT 

I'm overwhelmed with not wanting to 

FREAK you out

by not telling you 

SOMETHING 

I feel like I am a hot mess

THAT 

is what I'm telling you right now 

I gotta figure out 

& I feel like 

idk right now

however 

what I can tell you

is

YOU are MAGIC 

& I LOVE you VERY much 

check in march 26th

I have had

LUKE 

the

DRIFTER

in my HEAD all day

not sleeping yet

I feel like 

I screwed something up 

because of getting something wrong 

& I'm not sure if it was something 

to do with 

my dreams 

or having the thing about my mom

& the people from the studio 

are calling

& that brings in

the whole female friend thing

& then maybe I made you feel some kinda way

OR

just didn't respond to the right thing in the right WAY

maybe I didn't do anything wrong 

& I just feel SAD

BUT 

I was farther TODAY from the 

VIBING with the UNIVERSE 

than I have been 

SOME other

DAYS

SO

I'm gonna try to sleep NOW 

& WAKE UP

CLOSER

to the 

person I 

WANT 

to be 

🫶