Wednesday, November 20, 2024

OK
PASSPORT ordered
my last one expired in 2016
so I had to re-apply
BUT 
they use the old one as verification 
SO
maybe I get the same number 
I never checked if that was what they did the last time & I don't think it matters if I have the same number anyway 

I had the original and copies
birth certificate 
driver's license 
passport 

it was simple and quick 
SO hopefully that's 
taken care of

I feel like
I don't believe that any of the news
is telling me 
WHAT I NEED to KNOW 
& I am not sure
I can handle
MUCH 

BUT 
I need to figure out 
HOW to EXIST 
in this new
extremely alienating/alienated world

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart πŸ’‹
I HOPE you are having a beautiful day ☁️☕☁️

Tuesday, November 19, 2024

I had a weird day 
I went to therapy 
last week
he had a family emergency 
so I didn't 

I pretty much just talked about 

trying to talk myself 
into believing 
democracy 
is not
OVER

I SEEM
to be in the minority 

first thing 
I'm saying to the security guard 
you were right
& I'm counting on you to be right
about democracy 
NOT ending 

I've got a passport appointment 
in the morning 
NOT 
because I EXPECT to 
HAVE to LEAVE 
BUT 
just in case, ya KNOW 

I'm calm
BUT 

ANYWAY 
I have been 
alternating between
daydream believer
&
CHRISTMAS songs

SO
it's a weird day
to be in my HEAD 

the christmas songs started
LAST night 
as I was falling asleep 
JINGLE BELLS 

TODAY 
WINTER WONDERLAND 

I am strictly 
NO
christmas ANYTHING until AFTER
THANKSGIVING 

I hope you are having a beautiful day 
SORRY for not talking much

goodnight sweetheart πŸ’‹
I LOVE you VERY much 🫢
πŸ‘ΎπŸ«š
OK
I'm recommending 
Liposomal L-Theanine
as a real anxiety 
SOOTHER

I've been taking it for about a month
& I think it might be 
part of the reason 
I'm not 
FREAKING out 

I ordered it from Amazon 
& I haven't found it
anywhere else yet
BUT 
HIGHLY recommend 

Vivaravida L-Theanine 800mg supplement with GABA and Magnesium Glucinate


I gotta sleep 
I LOVE you!
STILL VERY much 
BUT 
I wanted emphasis 
πŸ«ΆπŸ‘ΎπŸ«šπŸ«Ά
πŸ’‹

Monday, November 18, 2024

I THINK 
I meant to talk about
the WIZARD of OZ 

OZ books
BOTH my mother and my father read them to me
SOMETIMES 
SOME TITLES
there was some title overlap 
I'm trying to say

L.Frank BAUM 
was trying to CREATE an AMERICAN 
FAIRYTALE 

and he transformed America
YELLOW BRICK ROAD
SILVER SLIPPERS 
BUT 
different aspects too

BUT 
I was SUPER into fairy tales before
I'm not sure WHY this is
RELEVANT 

I was just thinking 
OH it's about time to tell THAT story AGAIN 
BUT 
then I said DUH
WICKED
I haven't seen that so it wouldn't 
POP right up

BUT 
NOW I'm getting 
SURREY with the FRIDGE on top 

SO
we got kansas, we got oklahoma 

american innocence?

AMERICANA

I'm not sure what my CONTEXT is here

I guess I keep running up against 
this utopia idea
which seems never to have been sustainable 

I keep saying 
WORLD BUILDING 
not really certain what I'm talking about 

I don't KNOW 
if this is related at all, but I'm thinking I think
HUMANS need some sort of 
COSTUME festival 

I love the Renaissance festival 
BUT 
I don't want that

I was trying to think
WHAT is enough like that, but MORE future-y

and then I keep interjecting
that I'm possibly 
COMPLETELY 
some old lady

AND
I was thinking 
I really don't know what to listen to 
& I found that canadian lady
& I just enjoy her
BUT 
I'm pretty sure 
if I'm an old lady, she's an old lady 

BUT 
it's mostly the youngs what go to sum festival 
SO
I'm not sure where that leaves me
I SO want to say
AMERICANA festival

BUT 
what does that mean 
AGAIN 
I want to punch andras in the face
the CORRECT way 
to build a resistance movement 
is to vote for
the
LESSER 
of two evils

SO
you have a 
LESS OPPRESSIVE
regime to protest against 
NOT 
be some f*CKing
CRY BABY 

WHY
would you WANT
to coalition 
with someone too stupid to do THAT
how could you
EVER
TRUST them

I MEAN 
I still haven't forgiven him 
for the
give him the finger comment 

I liked him initially 
even though I knew he was
a certain sort of troublemaker
BUT 
I'm not even sure
why I didn't delete him after the finger thing

I guess
because I try not to be
a slam down the phone
slam the door 
make a big stink
kind of person

PROTEST votes are great
if the stakes aren't high
BUT 
they were

AND
I was NEVER enough of a friend 
to explain it to him

I gather he has trouble with people 
& doesn't really 
UNDERSTAND 
WHY

I'm keeping him
& that mostly maga chick
JUST
for perspective 

BUT 
I'm not RISKING anything for them

I WANT different party options too
BUT 
I don't want to have to
FEEL their PAIN 

I want people who can
THINK 

WHY
is that so much to ask