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I can still feel you though

even though

what does that mean 

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I WANTED to be 

KEROUAC 

I wanted to be hunter s. thompson 

I wanted to write stories 

but all I ever got was

shut out pathetic groupie

and that wasn't a story I wanted to write 

I never wanted to be a stage performer 

I wanted to pay for half the gasoline 

do half the driving

BUT 

we don't seem to be friends 

and that breaks me

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I thought we were friends 

who had seen each other through things

been there for each other

BUT 

you think all these bad things about me

& it doesn't seem like any good ones

I'm not attractive to you 

I don't understand why you would 

even want anything from me 

I'm broken enough 

I thought 

I really thought you loved me

and that you were like my

daddy and just hurt

BUT 

I just don't know what to think now

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everything I ever told you

was true when I told it to you

if my story is different now

it's because my perspective changed

over time

I LOVE you VERY much 

I wish you had told me

you didn't like me