ridiculously specific information about me

i love you sweetheart
today
i just kept circling back to
how attractive i think you are
it's not just how you look, exactly
it's more about the way you move
and your expressions
and i saw somewhere
a radiant smile
and i just thought--
wow

i had an omelette with shiitake mushrooms
with a little sour cream on top
because i had that
and i don't have cream cheese

these shiitakes are really different than ones i've had before
these are very soft
often they are almost woody
and not tasty to use in things
more usable as flavoring
but i'm not long boiling these in a soup
each package has four

so the other one will go in soup
but
short cook

the seaweed
idk if i said
is delicious
it's a different texture than the pacific kombu i'm used to
but
it's possible that i like the flavor more

i cooked a big ole piece with my chickpeas
on high in the crock pot for six hours
and it just cooked apart

but the leftover broth was so tasty
that i retained it
it's thick-ish, viscous
i used three table spoons in my gazpacho to adjust the texture
instead of bread
and it worked a charm

i mean
i think you're supposed to remove the tomato skins
make it all smooth
but
as it was for me
i did not
i added quite a bit of cilantro
some celtic sea salt
that kombu chickpea stock
and some aleppo pepper

then for dinner i had spinach salad
and vegetable lasagna

i feel i had a very satisfactory food day
i wanted dessert
so i had four dates
and
not gonna lie
that didn't completely satisfy my desire for dessert

i want those custard tarts i used to get at the chinese buffet
years ago
or
maybe
i want to try a tofu cheesecake
i've been craving the oatmeal i got at jamba juice
probably several years ago now
it was made with soy milk
and
i'm not the biggest fan of soy milk
but
i'm craving that so hard
maybe i need soy
but
ya know
not soy isolates
and
i have a urge to try to make my own soy milk
no additives, just old school soy bean milk
idk
imma wait on that i think
maybe i'll just buy some soy milk to make the oatmeal
and work my way around to making my own soy milk

box comes tomorrow
excited


and i find myself
making these lists for my pantry
i've never done that
i've just kind of bought things as i needed them
or
seen something i thought was interesting
and added that into the mix
but
now
i seem to want to list and quantify

pantry:

oils--  ya need three--  coconut, olive, and toasted sesame
now you could make that more complicated
you could get a refined coconut and an unrefined coconut
because things that you don't want to take on a coconut flavor
need a refined coconut oil
and you could have two olive oils
a more buttery tasting one for cooking
and a more olive-y one for salads and pestos and such
and
maybe you could get a lighter and more intense sesame oil
but
i'm inclined to say
just get a good one of those three
and it'll work itself out

vinegars--  ya need three--  apple cider, balsamic, and umeboshi
but
i, in fact, am super curious about vinegars right now
i want to try persimmon vinegar and black vinegar
so idk maybe i need more than three

i'm doing it with skin care too
or personal care, rather
the weleda salt toothpaste is my life pick
i just come back to that again and again
i just ordered clove oil and malin + goetz hand wash
because
i had a malin + goetz bay rum hand wash that i got in austin
when i was there with my mom several years ago
and it lasted forever
and i love it
it washes off really well
and i have a problem with that
and
i don't think i've ever told you this
but i am like mad for the smell of bay rum
mad i say
i become ecstatic and happy and such
but
it's really expensive for soap
i kept talking myself out of it
but
i've kept the bottle
my bamboo toothbrush rests across the shoulders of the bottle
so i can still enjoy the graphics
and across the glass i got years ago from la taste
liberte, egalite, fraternite, it says

i had a bunch of other stuff
mouth washes i was trying out
oil pulling
i cleared them all away

so i'm looking at the malin + goetz bottle longingly
and the glass and toothbrush
so pretty there together
and i'm like:  fuck it, malin + goetz bay rum is the soap
that's just what i'm getting from now on, end of story
and i ordered another bottle
mouth wash i like clove oil
ya put a couple drops in some very warm water
and ya swish it all around
it's healing, anti bacterial, it tastes good, and it makes your breath smell fresh too
win/win
now
i also want yogi tooth serum
and maybe imma buy that, but i can't right now
that's a living libations product
it's super healing and such
and
i love to brush my teeth with that before bed
and
i love to oil pull with an unrefined coconut oil
but
i mostly don't
so that's the like goal
but for now
no yogi tooth serum and no coconut oil
m+g hand wash
weleda toothpaste
yogi tooth serum

hair i've switched products
i'm still using the baby ecema soap
but when i was on my last trip i discovered
this which isn't what i was styling with then
but it is now, when used in combination with this
i was using the dove, but they were out
and i saw this and it appealed to me and it was cheaper
now sun bum has a dry shampoo
and maybe it's better
but it's more expensive
and it isn't claiming to texturize
but
this really does give texture
and the sun bum really does moisturize and cut frizz
and before my hair got so long again
it was really working for me

and
deodorant feels weird to be talking about
but this one
i don't know how it differs being "girl"
do "girls" sweat less or stink less
idk
i got it originally because of the beachy thing
plus, small for travel
but i've tried maybe four other scents and
while coconut vanilla is ok
the others i tried are gross
and the beachy one, i like
i wish they had a bigger one though
but what evs