i just reread that and there's something that didn't come out clearly at all

it's the things that get bulled through
that matter less
they are more immediate and urgent, yes
but they are less about me
and so less important to be perfect
it sounded to me
when I read it again
like I was saying the opposite

and
I meant
a writing partner
because
as soon as anybody else
started to take charge and change things
then I would have to
make decisions
or lose control

I think