there were a group of us
at a training facility
and some police came
part of who we trained were police
and we took them into the auditorium
and we set up the video with porn for them to watch
and i asked the others: did you make sure to use the legal stuff
because we don't want this to turn into some kind of raid
the person i asked had not considered this, so i was afraid
but then i looked at it and it was anime, really strange
there were two people in a bed
and one was wrapped up like a mummy
so there was no way to tell what they looked like, or even
what sex they were
and the guy seemed to be having sex with the mummy, maybe
from behind
but it wasn't even certain that anything was going on
and i said: well, you couldn't have chosen anything any softer core than that
and then
i was meeting some guy for dinner
at a restaurant that was in a docked yacht or something
when i met him there he was already seated at table
i greeted him, but then immediately went to find the restroom
which i found right away, no problem, but there was a woman leaning
right by the door, she seemed to be paralyzed
but she wasn't in a chair, she was supported upright, somehow
i don't know if she asked me to move her, or if i just did it
but she was friendly about it so i think it was what she wanted
she was thin but really heavy to move
but kinda like a pole or something she had a contact point with the wall
for balance
and i asked her if she was comfortable
and she said she was fine
and then
or maybe this was earlier, i'm not sure
i was serving bar-b-que at a work function
i had come back to work there after an absence of years
and it was some sort of function
and i talked a little to a guy who had been my boss for a while
who really liked me, i think, and who i liked, i think
we had worked well together and i missed him when i got a new boss
and he missed me when he got promoted
he was from new orleans, and was generally pretty laid back
and, as was usual for him at party functions, he was drunk
and i was doing something
but i'm not sure what
that wasn't to do with this job
and trying not to get caught doing my work on the side
and wanting not to be there
and getting filled in on what had been happening
by the girl next to me
as we handed out bar-b-que
and then
i was working at an art fair
and i can't really remember what happened
i know there was some calligraphic work around me
but i was pointing out that that wasn't my work
but i'm not sure what my work was
i don't think it was regular paintings
i think it was more complicated or technological or something
but it was image driven in some way
and the people who were walking by were really diggin my work
and that made me really happy
and then
i got a new edition
of some tarot deck
that apparently i'd had before
but these pictures were different, or at least some of them were
the magician, i remember was some type of wildflower, which is strange
the cards were perforated and had to be torn from one another
and i did have a deck come that way once: the enchanted tarot
but that deck is on card stock that is very thick
this deck was slick and shiny and much thinner
as i tore them, some of the ones i had already torn tried to blow away
my aunt was there, and she said: you still have plenty of cards
just let those go
with this look like she was disgusted with me
but i scrambled around trying to get them all
a tarot deck is no good without all the cards
they seemed to have shrunken to the size of a sheet of four postage stamps
she kept trying to get me to stop chasing them
and i was getting really angry with her
she's dead and i hardly ever get to talk to her and she has to bring
the critical self
hell why doesn't she just start telling me how i need plastic surgery
and how no one will ever love me if i'm fat
and how my voice is too pure for rock, but i'd be good for back-up
and how i'm heartless and selfish because i wouldn't do...something
and then i woke up
