Goodnight sweetheart

I'm gonna sleep for a little while

I love you very much 💋

🧲⚙️

I'm gonna sleep sweetheart

I love you very much 💋

 LaBare not The Bear

Okay well I didn't really go anywhere but I did drive around

I drove down fountainview to San Felipe and then to chimney Rock and then to Westheimer and then to Yorktown and then to sage and then to West Park and then west on West Park to Kirby and then Kirby to bissonnet bissonnet back down to sage sage to Richmond to well it's hillcroft there and then when you cross Westheimer it becomes Voss down to the whole foods on Voss and that driving around part before the whole foods stop was about an hour give or take and then I went into whole foods to get some soy milk which I thought would be no problem but there was no soy milk at the whole foods apparently soy milk is canceled

So they had one soy milk which upon closer inspection wasn't actually soy milk it was I got very excited and in fact I didn't notice this until I got home but it was by forager which is a brand that has all kind of nut milks and stuff and that yogurts well when I got home and looked at it it's actually soy milk with coconut cream and cashew in it so it doesn't taste right I mean it's okay but it's not good I'm kind of disgruntly

but I wandered around in the whole foods for I don't know probably almost an hour which is the kind of thing I do well historically

Now when I go to the grocery store I like plan where I'm going ahead of time and like you know practically sprint through the f****** store so that even with checkout I'm not usually there for longer than 30 minutes but there weren't too many people in the whole foods except for people who were working at the whole foods

And then just because I felt bad that I hadn't actually gone anywhere I went into the blue mercury which is some fancy skin care store that I've walked by and looked in the window but have never gone in and you know whatever it's all pretty expensive stuff

And nobody acknowledged me or said hi when I came in the door although they were talking to other people so maybe it's not there thing to greet people I don't know but they might have also looked at me and said yeah she's not our customer

And they're right I'm not their customer

Then I got back in the car and I drove down woodway to fountainview to San Felipe to Augusta to Burgoyne to in the back way sideway whatever the entrance

I did learn something though

LeBare which I don't know I think they have them I think it's a franchise I think they have a mother places but I could be wrong but it's a strip club for women where men strip

Which I've never been to because eww

They had a sign up that said thank you for 42 wonderful years

So I guess they closed at some point during the pandemic

Which I mean makes sense

But my guess would be that they've been closed for probably almost 2 years now

Because my guess is that they closed when all the bars had to close and they probably just never reopened but I could be wrong

So when I went to bed last night it was my plan to get up at like 10:00 or 10:30 this morning and driving my car around because you know it's been another week and I've got to drive it I really need to drive it more than once a week but when the battery is new probably once a week be enough to do it but has the battery gets a little older and it gets less and less time in it's going to need to be driven more frequently so I really need to get back in the habit of driving

So when I woke up at 10:30 I had a really bad headache so I was like okay I will take a time and all and I will go back to bed for an hour and then I will get up and when that alarm went off it said at 4:00 12:30 and then I said it for 1:30 and then I didn't set it anymore and I didn't wake up until 6:00 so I don't really know how I slept that long

And I was going to go to sleep I don't know I had a couple of different plans One of my plans was to just stay up for 24 hours until 6:00 p.m. and then sleep 12 hours and get up at 6:00 a.m. the next day because that 24 and 12 thing seemed like it worked for a while but then I thought well no I'll go to bed and I'll just sleep for 4 hours or so and then I'll get up and drive the car around early in the morning but you know now it's 4:30 so my choices are I can stay up and go drive the car but it's not going to be late until like 7:30 or I could sleep for a few hours and get up and do it but I don't know if I trust myself to get up and do it

But and I'm not really sleepy but I am kind of I don't know tired maybe isn't the right word exactly slightly disoriented I feel like I've been awake for a really long time and I'm not terribly coherent but I really haven't been awake for that long

I'm really not sure what I've been doing for the last 4 hours

So I think what I'm going to do is I'm going to go lay down and listen to book tape

I'm really enjoying the moonstone but I have not gotten very far at all

And normally I would take some melatonin because if I don't take melatonin then when I wake up in a few hours I won't be able to go back to sleep but since what I want is to not be able to go back to sleep because I want to get up but then again I don't know if I'll be able to go to sleep

But I guess if I can't go to sleep then when it's 7:30 I'll just get up and go drive around I don't know

I have several different thoughts

Maybe I will go and have breakfast

I probably need to go to the grocery store because I'm almost completely out of soy milk

And I'm getting low on grapefruit juice

And those are both things that I require for my day-to-day

And I could absolutely have them delivered but if I need to go out and drive I could also while I'm out pick that up

But I can't just drive to pick that up because that isn't far enough driving

I don't know about the breakfast though

I mean I guess early breakfast on a Sunday could work and not be too crowded

Because the people who go to church will be out of church yet and the people don't go to church won't be awake yet maybe

When I went to the was going to go I should say to the museum the other day that might not have worked anyway because I've looked it up now and they have timed entry so I don't know you know so they don't get too many people in there I don't know what they do if you just show up maybe they save a certain number of timed entries for people who just show up

I could go to the zoo

I feel like if I'm trying to get myself over the fear I should probably go somewhere since just driving around in my car doesn't really change anything although I seem to have trouble getting myself to do that too but I feel like at some point I should move beyond just driving around in my car

Anyway I don't know

One thing that's interesting about the moonstone is I'm listening to this narration piece that's by the Steward I think I told you about that maybe not but what I didn't mention was the sky he has maybe read it so maybe you know this but he has Robinson Crusoe as kind of like his Bible and that struck me it's kind of interesting because I mean of course Robinson Crusoe is you know classic literature and I'm sure I've read excerpts out of it but I've not read the whole thing for sure it never really interested me to read the whole thing it's been used for tropes so much for just everything but I was like huh

Because Collins is character who's narrating her well who's writing the story he writes the he writes a story and his daughter looks over his shoulder and is like that's not what you're supposed to do you're just writing about you and he says I wonder if writers ever get distracted by themselves right and I thought that was a very like you know third wall winky winky kind of moment and so I wondered if having Robinson Crusoe was a kind of a humor thing as well that I just wasn't really getting and so I looked it up and it was written quite a bit earlier was written in 1719 whereas the moonstone is written in 1868 I think maybe 1865 1866 somewhere in there but I think it's 1868

But Robinson Crusoe is credited by some as being the first novel maybe the first modern novel I'm uncertain because I thought Don Quixote was credited as being the first novel and possibly something else but maybe what they mean is the first English language novel

And of course the moonstone is credited with being the first mystery and so maybe it's like a wink and a nudge you know a cam doing a new thing here but maybe not maybe there's something else completely that if I read Robinson Crusoe I would get the joke because I'm pretty sure there is a joke there I'm just not sure if it's worth 10 hours of listening to Robinson Crusoe to get the joke

But I looked and there was a free version so I may maybe we'll see

Also I got interested in the Wilkie Collins guy and I looked him up and he seems like he was kind of an interesting auntie establishment cat really really auntie really and ty no

Anti-establishment there we go knew you'd get there in the end

Anyway

Off to maybe sleep for a few hours

I love you very much sweetheart 💋

Goodnight sweetheart I love you very much 💋

Goodnight sweetheart

I love you

very much

💋

🧲⚙️

I'm up

and

going to shower

and blah blah

Goodnight sweetheart I love you very much 💋

I'm gonna sleep

but my plan is to be up by 10

Goodnight sweetheart I love you very much 💋

Well after trying to get into the department of sensitive crimes and failing to become involved with the narrative

I have moved on to the moonstone

Now I did see a film version of that before so I have some idea of what happens

But I think it was still be different to listen to it

And I'm hopeful that I will enjoy it

I'm going to try to sleep a little bit now

I love you very much sweetheart 💋

I love you sweetheart

very much indeed💋

 i tried to go to the museum thursday

i did drive around

but

i didn't make it to the museum

i got almost to kirby, not quite

and then my stomach started to hurt really bad

i thought i might throw up

or maybe shit myself

so

i decided to try to go to cleburne

but

the parking lot was packed  packed

and i couldn't do that either

so i managed to stop at the donut place

which, at about 1pm was  empty

goodnight sweetheart  *kiss*

i love you very much

You have such a great smile

Goodnight sweetheart

I love you very much 💋

I love you very much sweetheart 💋

I'm going to bed now

💋 goodnight sweetheart

I love you very much💋

Goodnight sweetheart 💋

I love you

very much

Goodnight sweetheart

I love you very much

💋

Goodnight sweetheart I love you very much 💋