ok
i'm gonna go to be before i fall asleep in the chair
i think my body wants soy
i had that mac + cheese
for dinner and lunch
multiple days
and
i want more more more
i made oatmeal with soy
i flavored it with cinnamon + cardamon + maple syrup
with some coconut oil and these giant raisins i got from the imperfect produce
and i'm trying to start noticing
how much of things i put in recipes
i didn't measure the cinnamon or the cardamon
because i know i use like four times as much as a normal person
i just used a couple Tbsp of maple syrup
in the whole pot
and i only ate half of it
i'm gonna try to eat breakfast
but
i used the whole 2 cup bag of raisins
and it was the right amount for me

i was experimenting with different oatmeal
i usually get steel cut
but that has to cook for a while
and i (maybe) like oat bran better
but i don't usually cook that by itself
but it takes less time
so
i then also found a three minute oats with oat bran
and the three minute oats is somehow pre-cooked
so i don't usually get that
but it cooks so much faster
anyway
what i did
was use 1 cup of the three minute oats
and a 1/2 cup of the oat bran
in 4 cups of soy milk

it cooked so so fast
very convenient
and my body loved the soy
i was afraid that i was going to be wasting it
like because i don't believe that three minute oats is food even
but it seemed ok
and the oat bran is real regardless

and even though it didn't cook for a long time
it was good anyway
and i loved it
and my body is screaming for more soy
probably wants to make estrogen

i'm getting artichokes in my imperfect produce tomorrow
so
i'll have my first ever experience trying to cook those
and
i will make a baked ziti version of my mac + cheese soon
maybe not this sunday
because i still have a butternut squash
but that's not going anywhere
so
i may do it this sunday
i love baked ziti
and i think if i use a little less nutritional yeast
and reconfigure the seasonings
and then throw some roasted tomato over the top
i think it's gonna be excellent

i was eating the mac + cheese
and thought
the texture of this is really more like baked ziti
such total yum

i've also learned
if you are hungry
even really hungry
and you eat six dates
you are good to go for hours
they are packed with energy
and i know they aren't low calorie
but they aren't that bad
except sugars they are high on the sugars as far as macros

also
if you let a cantaloupe get so ripe that you can cut it with a plastic knife
it is fucking a-maze-ing
and with avocado
is a very satisfying lunch
like
it makes you feel better
those little grape tomatoes
are like the best snack food ever
but they're good for lunch too with something else

and, sadly, quest has changed the recipe on my bars
they ruined it for me
after i finish the box i'm on
i'm not buying them anymore

i'm going to be trying some other bars
but
think! bars in peanut butter are really good
especially for breakfast
i've eaten them driving to work several times
and they are good with pu erh tea
so are dates

but
possibly i could make bars
i just have found that i feel better if i get protein
and the bars are 20g of protein
and i could do shakes
but for various reasons
that has been unsuccessful in the past
bars just work better

but
we'll see
i'm not sure how much protein is in a tofu scramble samdwich
but
more calories for sure

i really hope i have good dreams tonight
i've had bad dreams for the last few nights
and leg cramps i have to get up and walk off
and i've been generally kinda in a funk

i'm in a pretty good mood now
so i really hope
good dreams
and a better mood tomorrow

goodnight sweetheart
i love you very much