My thinking was
I write these things
that I've come to realize
other people don't see as complete
but
they are kinda like koans
I think
so
I was thinking
koan
meditation on koan
as format for book
which is a variation on
the last idea I had for our book
which was more of a micro whatever
not a koan
but
then
of course
all the koans
seemed to be telling me things
I didn't want to hear
and now
all I keep have running through my head
is the premonition about dying alone in the desert
