so
i'm home sick
yesterday and today
although i was off today
so maybe it doesn't really count as a sick day
i don't know what's wrong with me
but
i suspect
hormones

and
depression

whatever
i'm in a serious FOG
and my head hurts really bad
my nose is intermittently just running like a fucking faucet
i was having an issue
for which i would normally just take several peptos and go in anyway
but
my guts hurt so bad
i was afraid keeping things in
might not be a good idea

see
is that any kind of normal sickness
no
it seems much more like hormones, doesn't it


i had a dream
that i thought might be a good sign
i was working
i'm not exactly sure where
but i just kinda wandered in
and said
i just remembered
i should take the deposit to the bank
there are thousands of dollars just sitting there
and outside
on a tree out front
there was a note about who the manager was
but it was like two ago
and a phone list
and i'm like

someone take this down
we don't want everyone's number just out here for everyone to see

not really sure what all that means
but there wasn't any stress
and i seemed in charge of things