i heard adele
now, i've got nothing against adele
but
i always feel like she was
according to the industry
supposed to fill the slot left by amy winehouse
and, for me at least
adele is no amy winehouse
so then
i really really wanted to hear amy winehouse
here, see what i mean:
this was the first song that came up on my phone
youtube amy winehouse
and it illustrates my point, i think
but it's not just
not the bad girl good girl thing
not that
adele sounds like she is giving it all she's got
and doing a creditable job
of mainstreamish good
amy sounds like she is giving it
nothing
no effort
she can do it shit faced for god sake
and there's that kernal of stylistic genius
now, i mean, i'm not saying she isn't giving any effort
i'm saying it seems effortless
i woke up with a headache
and i really didn't want to go to work
and i really didn't work that hard today
but
amy got me off on the right foot i guess
and
they were setting christmas
and that always pisses me off
can't we get through fucking halloween, even
but
there's this buddha ornament
in a pink robe
with butterflies
and suddenly
i wanted a pink christmas
now
we did the tree
and the presents
we just didn't do santa, or jesus, ya know
when i was a kid
but
i haven't
since i've been grown
it has seemed stupid, at best
but
when i was a kid in the 70s
maybe you remember
they had those flocked trees
in crazy colors
and every year i would peek into that special tent
and be like
let's get a pink one
let's get a purple one
let's get a black one
and nobody was ever having any of it
it was gonna be a plain ole tree that would sit in the window
and look just like everybody else's tree
plus those were way more expensive
and
before i got all into you
and found it meaningful to try to connect to judaism
my previous plan had been
if i have kids
i'm gonna pick one holiday from every major culture
that i can relate to
and celebrate that calendar
so that
the kid will have a generalized multicultural understanding
and the best cherry picked holidays
and
whoever they meet
they got one holiday in common
see good, right
except they overlap sometimes
and
it could get a little disjointed
and the idea
id to use the holidays
to achieve human actualization goals
i like the whole concept of passover as
i was a slave
what am i enslaved to
what am i being set free from
where is the promised land i'm headed for
i think the concept behind lent is really good
in that you are giving up something
that you decide is bad for you
purifying yourself by abstaining for 40 days
but
i'm uncomfortable with
whatever jesus has to do with that
i think it's some significant thing
i just don't know
ramadan is fasting
which isn't quite what i'm going for
and sun dance is too intense
couldn't translate to childhood experience
maybe there is something
something buddhist, maybe
but that would be all the time
and my whole theory
is
varry the focus
hit something important with each holiday
so
by the time they're grown
they have all the actualization tools just built into the calendar, ya know
but
fun
and, like effortless
i really like the idea of carnival or mardi gras
paired with lent
but
doesn't that seasonally overlap with passover
i think it does
well, this year for example
lent would have ended april 2
and then passover started april 2 or 3
i don't think that works
i can't find a muslim holiday that works for me
so, in practice i'm not sure it works at all
plus then
you don't get the flow of the seasons and such
i don't know why i have to figure this out right now
probably because i'm writing you something
but
i have to go to sleep
i've been having very active and strange dreams
but i haven't been able to remember them
goodnight sweetheart
i'm not sure how coherent this was
