i was going to go in early
but i didn't get there early
i tweaked my back a little the day before
[but i was so proud
i cleared out the hall in a couple hours to make room for the new
so i must have cleared about a hundred cases, literally]
so i took a longer shower
and then
there's my telescoping morning routine....
and i was nervous
because the police told the big box next door that they should expect protesters
and, as a consequence of that, the district manager was going to be there
he's kind of a jackass
anyway
i got in there
i put stuff out
i moved stuff around
i got the tasting ready
and every time they called for register back up
rather than go
i just told myself how much money we'd lose
if i
didn't get to do what i was doing
suck it
somebody else has to go
my complete fixation with that one thing has worked like a charm
i haven't been dreaming that i'm working
so i'm not getting as exhausted
i have a pretty steep learning curve
so i think i'm getting the hang of it
and
i like it
i think i look good
my skin looks better too, i think
[not today though
it's happy happy blood time
and i have some small blemishes
but, hey
not a bunch of huge cystic stuff on my chin]
but i'm not sure whether that's because i've finally figured out my, let's face it, middle aged skin
or whether my hormones were just more mellow this month
i didn't seem to have any sort of pre-menstrual amped up emotion
at this time of year
that seems like some sort of miracle
anyway
by the time i left
i had sold about 1100 units
so
it pretty much looked like shit
i stayed about an hour late
i put more stuff out
but then
i thanked my helper in advance for all the work i knew she was gonna do
and i left
i have three helpers
none of them work with me much
but i need them
i have no authority over them
none at all
so they do what i say because they want to help me, pretty much
one of them is gone now
she and her husband are moving to new jersey
he got a better job and whatever
i had two seasonal hires in mind for that slot after the holidays
but
she already picked her successor
which tickled me no end
i'm picky
i'm difficult to work for, apparently
the people i'm looking at are outgoing, knowledgeable about the wine already
smart, attractive, cream of the crop type people
they're unlikely to stay
and, perhaps, unlikely to thrive on my weirdness
the one she picked for me
she doesn't drink, she's a little attitudy, she makes me uncomfortable
because she's slightly socially maladaptive, and kinda nerdy
she's married to a guy with aspbergers
clearly
she can handle me
it made me love farm girl all that much more that she totally set that up
i kind of have to accept it as a fait acomplis
anyway
after i got off work
i had to go wander around to decompress
and i just really realized that my grocery store has more drugstore cosmetics
than the drugstore i go to
and
they have coupons
so
i wandered up and down the aisles for
[i'm not sure]
an hour and a half
maybe two
i got a back up of my favorite shadow
maybelline expert wear earthly taupe
and then i spent forever deciding what to get with it
[the deal was buy two items get three dollars off]
but, seriously
every lipstick seemed to have been opened
so i ended up getting another shadow night sky
with coupon
final price per eyeshadow one-o-seven, score
i thought the three dollars i'd managed to get for the others was good
then too
i have decided that what i need
is this urban decay shade i used to have
called polyester bride
no no, i say to myself, that's a glitter bomb and you're an "older" woman now
it will not look good
plus inappropriate
but i couldn't help myself
well, they don't make it anymore
so, there's that
but
milani makes a baked shadow called lily white
dollar off coupon = four dollars-ish
after i checked out
i ran to the car
[ok, i didn't really run]
put it on with my fingers
visor mirror
transformed
i put it on the inside corners
and really inside third of my lid
[cause i saw somebody do that and it made their eyes wide, doe-eyed
and that's always been what i want uma thurman eyes]
i also put it as a brow bone highlight
and
suddenly
the asian quality of my eye was accentuated
they didn't look bigger
but
they were beautiful
so now i have that to figure out
how not to overdo that
anyway
there was more
but this feels like the place to stop with this
the small interactions which i enjoyed
with random people
in the grocery store
and my musings on nail polish names hot mess and unicorn
feels like -- too much
after that i went home
cooked fish sandwiches
no french fries or chips or anything
on these crazy little yeast rolls -- so more like sliders, really
with a jillion pickle chips
this might be the best holiday season i've had
-- so far --
as an adult
