i want to write something, and i think i will later, but right now i want to tell you about something that happened yesterday

i stopped by ulta after work, because they had a free gift for me
mascara, which i don't wear
but it was ck one makeup
and they have some cool colors of mascara that i kinda want to try
although the free one is just black
but at least i could know how bad it irritates my eyes

whatever, too much wind up

so
i'm in ulta, after work
which happens
it's happened
i've been in there, in that light, with those mirrors, a lot

but this time
i look in the mirror
and
rather than saying:

wow, i look tired
or
wow, i'm fatter than i think i am
or
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkk

this time
i was like
wow, the light must be really good in here
or this makeup must be better than i thought it was
or maybe that new shampoo is really working
or
something
because i look, great
younger 

so
when i got home
i took off the makeup
and brushed back my hair close to my head
and got under a harsh, unforgiving light

and
i look younger

unfortunately
i'm not just doing one new thing
new year, new you, whatever
there's no way to isolate
what's actually working--  very unscientific

but i was looking at mid-thirties
instead of late thirties
which was already not bad

and, you know, this is completely inappropriate
but, i'm gonna say it anyway
but, until debbie heather pointed it out
i didn't really realize i had bags
i've always had the dark circles
and slight troughs, puffiness
it just didn't register
as an age thing
but
since she pointed it out
i've been working on that too
and the right eye's almost completely flat
it's just the pesky left eye that has any puff

so, here's the inappropriate part:

if you still read this, which i hope to god you don't
but if you do

thank you
for your useful feedback

will reading this make him have negative feelings (re, inappropriateness)