are you ok

i just dreamed
you came to my apartment
not this one
everything was different
you were very nervous about being caught
i was younger, naked
i pressed against you
kissed you
you seemed older, slightly frail
the kiss was very tender, but deep
then
as you were leaving
somehow
i was hitting myself with a taser
you pulled it away from me
i grabbed you
and the electricity ran through us
a continuous loop

yes, i thought
just like sex

but then you were being pulled away

is he ok, i asked them
no, he didn't make it
but
you have to save him, i said
i love him
but
you were just a magazine
as i tried to perform cpr