last night i had a very strange dream cycle
now this may just be because i have a cold
i think it's a cold, might be allergy, but
i definitely do not have swine flu
i'm just not that sick
but my brain works differently when it's in repair mode
so the dreams were weird
the first of two parts that i remember
i was living in this house with other people
in the dream my mom owned it
one of the girls i lived with is a girl
who used to work for me
she was from the country
and she would use this phrase: i'm grain fed
the way i would use: i'm butch
i.e. to mean: i'm tough, i can handle what you throw at me, i can lift heavy objects
and i wasn't much like me i was young and pretty
and i had a lover who looked like apollo from battlestar gallactica
who i don't find attractive in real life, but in the dream, yes
and he wanted to take me away somewhere
and the house kept flooding, every day
which might come from a conversation that i had with my mom about venice
and i felt bad to be leaving grain-fed-girl to deal with the house
but i thought, if i can get rent from the people who live there
i can afford a small place of my own
i went into town
it was a western town
and i rented rooms above a shop for $200. a month
the bathroom was down the hall
then i was driving to a small town
i want to say it was in the midwest, but i'm not positive
it was a farming community, i know that
and i was going for some kind of festival
and the mayor was confused about basic details
and some people were telling me about the festival
and they said: the electricity will go out at 1pm
why is that, i asked them
well, it's all to do with the 13s
13th day of 13th month at 13:13 (that's 1:13)
yeah, i get the military time, i've had digital watches
well, the electricity goes out, that's all
and it makes things difficult for the festival
and then i was driving down the street again
i stopped at a light
and the rigid metal parts of my car went soft
like warm caramel
and when i started through the light
i left pieces of my car behind
it still drove fine, but i was concerned
i stopped and parked
and as i stepped away from the car
i had in my hands what i guess was the engine
but it was a silver box about 11"x17" with two small belts
one was broken and one seemed loose
otherwise it seemed functional but didn't look like a car engine
i needed to look under the hood
i needed to get back into the car to release it
but i couldn't find the key
so i went into an open sided barn
maybe just a covered horse area
opened my case and dug through it
there were many many necklaces
there were many many keys
there were these huge carved mother of pearl koi earrings
they were amazingly beautiful
but i couldn't find the key