I just had a homeless guy
(I assume he is, anyway)
who came in to get a drink of water
tell me
after a very short chat
that
he gets to decide
who stays on earth
and who goes to Neptune
and
I can stay here on earth
if I want to
he says
I wanted
to ask him
like
the pros and cons of Neptune
but
I wasn't sure if that was a good idea
so
I just said
something like
oh, ok
like I was taking it under advisement
which
I kinda felt like I was


I love you sweetheart
hope you are having
a very relaxing day

i have this idea

watching the videos with the water sounds
made me remember how much i miss that sound
from back when i had fish tanks
and that made me think
about sleeping in the greenhouse
i'm not sure it makes sense
to try to
like
live in the greenhouse
as such
but
maybe sleeping in the greenhouse is a thing

i really really hope
that you aren't unhappy with me

i have things
i'd like to talk about
that i can't
and
stuff
i might not understand
but
regardless
i haven't felt you at all today
well
maybe once
and
so
ya know
whatever
i'm in the midst of what seems like a long stretch
of being paranoid
or overly sensitive
or
hormonal
whatever
but

i'm assuming
we're good
i think

and
i'm going to continue to plan
my little off grid thing
assuming that you will
not take it as an assault against you somehow, right
because it is not meant that way

i love you
goodnight sweetheart

good morning sweetheart
I love you

good morning sweetheart i love you

I had very complicated dreams
and when I got up
about two hours ago now
I didn't feel like I could have been
asleep for more than
5 minutes
even though
I'd been snoozing
for 30 minutes
but
I was physically very comfortable
so
I don't think
it was a stressful dream
but
I can't remember what it was
and
I don't know what it means


I got 5 hours of sleep
and
I rarely get more than 6
except on days off
I feel like we must have
been discussing important things
do you remember
what
we were talking about?

sweetness

I love you
dream with me tonight
psychedelic visions

ok
it feels like
you've been doing that
corkscrew thing
which is much stranger
standing up
so
I love you
I guess you are trying to get my attention
and
I feel ya
you love me
stuff's ok
I'm just
freaking out

I love you sweetheart
meet me
if you can
in dreamland

how you doin?
love you sweetness

a nice thing happened to me
I was singing along with the music
which usually I don't
but
right then I was
because
I couldn't help myself
and
myrca
she turns to me
and she says
you have a really beautiful voice
and
I can't remember the last time
anyone said that to me
and
it made me really happy


this is the song
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ihsQTnCPb70

good morning sweetheart

I love you

I'm not saying
I'd rather be a hermit
than live with you
or anything like that
just
ya know

you can buy land
in that area they are all talking about
close-ish to Marfa
$3000 for 10 acres
you have to be off grid
but
that is cheap enough
to make me think
hey
it's possible
like the convergence of
several dreams
and
I feel a lot less helpless
of course
I'm not sure what
I can build myself
all alone
but
I'm thinkin
I've got ideas


wild wild west 😊

good morning sweetheart
I love you

somehow
I missed seeing notifications
so
probably would have missed


I'm up now
good morning/ early afternoon
I love you

good morning sweetheart
I love you

i hope everything is good
in your world

i love you very much

i'm feeling an intense dread of going to work
it's promo change again
so
i may not be where you expect me to be
at the times
i would normally be there

i think
i need
something
my
attitude needs adjusting

also
i'm starting to bore myself

i don't really want to talk
to people
that talking is what's boring me

i need an adventure

good morning sweetheart

I love you

good morning sweetheart

I love you

good morning sweetheart
I love you

goodnight sweetheart

i love you