I think there was more before this but
I was at some kind of an after-party
I don't think you were there
But your sister was there
Only she was much younger and what completely different so I didn't recognize her
And somebody brought me a bunch of pictures to look at
As your parents at a big like manor house
I downton abbey looking thing
And I'm like I don't understand what I'm looking at what is this mean
And nobody knew
But they seem to think that you wanted me to see these pictures
And everybody kept telling me to for driving lights were a problem
Like that I could not drive at night for some reason
And I'm like okay well then maybe I need a hotel where's a good hotel here
Although I'm not sure we're here was
And your sister in the dream who I'm not sure I knew was your sister in the dream even
She's like oh you can stay with me You can sleep under the sleeper
But I did not know what that meant
I thought it meant she liked me at least but I wasn't even sure of that
But then that didn't happen
And I was driving it wasn't at night
And every time I would stop someplace to get food or whatever people would tell me again how I couldn't drive it night
And I was driving in this nightgown
It was really short and I didn't have any underwear or anything on
Kind of like I have been sleeping
I'm in this big oversized shirt and it's long but it's not super long
So it covers everything that technically needs to be covered but you don't have a lot of wiggle room
And it's super hot here so that's fine
But I was thinking in the dream that if something happened and I got stopped or something that that would maybe be bad so I pulled over in this big field in front of a house not specifically in front of the house and I was opening the doors and looking in the car
I really just wanted to put on some underwear
And I found a pair of underwear but it was covered with like that pollon-y stuff that comes off of oak trees
And I didn't want to put it next to my skin because I was afraid it would irritate me
So then I found this long pink house jacket and I thought well that'll work
But when I started trying to put it on suddenly all these people were around me I was putting grocery bags of food in the car
And these people were looking at groceries that were on a shelf thing that was suddenly right behind me and looking at clothes on a rack
And then they should tell me again how I couldn't drive after dark
And then I was somewhere
Your wife was also there
And I was asking you about the pictures
And you were like
I don't know what diluted realities you have that make you think you saw pictures
I turned to her and say I was at some party that I had thought you were at but I couldn't find you and you wouldn't talk to me and somebody showed me some pictures
And then we slipped away somewhere
And we were walking
And talking
And I had kind of a lucid dream moment
I'm like oh my God this is like all I've ever wanted this conversation we're having right now
And we were trying to figure out
What was our situation
And it was sort of confusing and we didn't know
And I was trying to find out
I was telling you that for years I thought you know we were going to be together
Not like I was your groupie and maybe we'd f*** someday
But like actually be together
But that now I wasn't sure that that was anything you had ever wanted
And I wasn't sure if it was what was best for us anyway
That maybe
You had always ever wanted to stay with your wife
And you had always ever wanted from me something more intangible
And that I had always wanted to chase after you be your wife
But maybe I would really be happier as something more intangible
But I don't think we have time to figure it out at this particular moment
I said
Where will you be tomorrow
And you turned into a beautiful little girl somehow
I don't know maybe eight
With a big beautiful eyes
And long dark curling hair
And you looked up at me
And you said
Okemah, my love
And then you turn back into yourself
And I'm like how are you going to get to okemah by tomorrow
You're like
it's not going to be easy
And then you turn back into the little girl and twirl away
