so, i bought myself a holly daze present

or rather
it's actually 4 things
but
it's ordered from one place
so i'm considering it one gift, ya know

idk if you realize how much i like makeup brushes
much more than i like makeup, actually
and
i don;t really need any more
but i want them
i watch the fude girl's videos
and, i mean they are kinda slow paced and slightly awkward
not, maybe, the type of thing you'd think i'd watch
but i actually really like them and find them super interesting
so
as a consequence
i have been wanting some koyomo brushes for a while now
but, also
blah blah whole bunch of variables
so rather than trying to reconstruct my search through cdjapan website
i will just show you what i ordered

very excited

this is the first and most important
it is the same shape as the suqqu m brush knock off which i bought on ebay
for some ridiculously cheap price
it's from china
but
i find that i'm using that almost exclusively for eyeshadow

this is the second most important, it is the shape of my chikuhodo T7
which is the brush i like the best for blending out edges
i can apply shadow with it
technically you could do everything with it except line, i guess
but i don't
i only like it for blending out
but i really really like it for that

those two i picked pretty fast
but
i wasn't stopping there
they have a blush and a powder in that same series
but
i don't like goat just especially for those things
i have a synthetic brush i use for blush
it's the only one i currently use
and i went through a bunch of different sizes and shapes
getting one i liked
i ordered it last year
black friday from the body shop
here,since i talked about it
and
for powder
i usually wear mineral powder
and i have a synthetic brush i use for that too
this one here

so
why the need for real hair eye shadow brushes
idk
they just work better for eye shadow

so
i had to think about what would be most useful
and what was most beautiful
and what i wanted to experiment with
and, let me just say
it's not the most user friendly website

not all the brushes i want are available through cdjapan
the three brush i want is not
and there's another one i pinned in face paintings that is not available
well, it is
and so is the suqqu m
but only "by proxy"
and that seems dubious and takes like 6 weeks
besides, too much money
so
i looked around
and i decided on this one to fill that role
i'm not really familiar with this brand
and i'm uncertain whether i think they look cool
or lurid
but the brush is squirrel and sable
and i think i'm gonna love that combination

so
i said
you can get one more
they are pretty good prices on the brushes
the shipping brings it up, some, but still

i had another pinned brush that they had still
but
i found it was in competition with two other brushes
it is made of horse and wooded handled
like it matches (kinda) the blush brush
but
then there was a pony
same color pink as the first two
but different ferrule
or
there was one the same brand as the last one
they were all similar shape
pony and horse might technically be the same material
and this last one is goat
but
slightly more exciting shape
and
really good reviews
and
i was very attracted to it
and two matching brushes seemed
sexier than just the one, which seemed to push it closer to lurid
so i broke down and got this one

i know this is unlikely to be very interesting to you
but
i spent multiple hours on this hunt
and i am super excited to get them
i love presents

it's not a hanukkah present
or a christmas present
it's specifically a holly daze present
because i am feeling
just on the edge
of bah humbug
and i gotta pull out of the spin before it goes there

i'm getting hungry
and i need to go to sleep soon
i think i'm gonna eat my leftover mu shu tofu
and
some ice cream
and call it a night