well, the blood is here

I figured it might be coming
my breasts have been
really tender
for like a week
which has been
super inconvenient
and
I don't know if they were on sale
or that was all they had
or what
but
the tampons I bought
are not the kind I use
they are funky
the box is black
and maybe that's why
but
it's disconcerting


hope you're having a good day


I had a bunch of errands
planned for today
but
fun ones
I wanted to do
so
we'll see how it goes

i guess i want to talk about this

I lost track of my period
I think
I had one in October
but
I'm not completely sure
also
if I had one in October
not sure when
but
for sure
I didn't have one in November
or
December
and
I was hoping I had one
at the end of October
and then
I'd have one at the beginning of January
so that maybe I only missed one
I've missed one before
twice
but
I've not missed two
even in a calendar year
much less
two consecutively
so
it's not lookin good
probably
and
so
you know
there's that
menopause
I guess
it seems unfair
that I can't enjoy
not bleeding