and you'd think
maybe
I'd be unhappy about it
but
I'm not
I'm excited
which makes no sense
nobody is throwing me a big party
and I have to work
but
I still think
wow, it's my birthday, cool
hopefully I'll do something fun
probably should start workin that out now
but
there's always birthday cake
which is awesome
and for some reason
49 seems cool again
which hasn't happened since 41 or 42
I think
whatever
I'm falling apart
and aging
but
maybe I'll get a penata or play pin the tail on the donkey like when I was a kid
who can say
I can't
it's a very real possibility
