Gratefullness

i didn't grow up with a tradition of gratefullness

by which i mean

we didn't sit around the table on Thanksgiving

each declaring to the other

for X i am grateful

for Y i am grateful

it was food

and football

and family fighting, generally

sometimes followed

by poker

[five card draw, mostly, sometimes blackjack]

or monopoly

[i like to be the thimble]

[my father always cheated]

and

maybe it's too late to start with the gratefullness

i don't know

maybe start small

today

today i like coffee
and eye balm
and mood altering lipgloss
and supplements that keep me functioning

[reasonably pain free]

hot dang o.g. veggie burgers

[which i'm having for thanksgiving dinner]

smoked cheese

[ditto]

technology

and

you