tonight's readings

what is going to happen for me in the next year:

http://www.facade.com/tarot/personal/?UID=607258&Date=11%2F25%2F2012&Name=Anonymous&Query=&Deck=voodoo&Reading=


will i stop feeling like there is just no point any time soon:

http://www.facade.com/tarot/personal/?UID=223797&Date=11%2F25%2F2012&Name=Anonymous&Query=&Deck=voodoo&Reading=single

did i lie to the puppyfish:

http://www.facade.com/tarot/personal/?UID=670269&Date=11%2F25%2F2012&Name=Anonymous&Query=&Deck=voodoo&Reading=single

will i ever get my shit together:

http://www.facade.com/tarot/personal/?UID=197133&Date=11%2F25%2F2012&Name=Anonymous&Query=&Deck=voodoo&Reading=single

what does he think about me now:

http://www.facade.com/tarot/personal/?UID=479396&Date=11%2F25%2F2012&Name=Anonymous&Query=&Deck=voodoo&Reading=

i love you

i saw cloud atlas today
and
i thought of you

it's hard, sometimes
ya know
loving you

never really knowing
if this is what it's meant to be like
this distance

some days
i think yes

some days
i think no

some days
i think i missed my chance
that maybe we were supposed to be together
but that it's too late now

but somehow
cloud atlas gave it a little more perspective

i will always love you
and
someday
you'll look me in the eye
and admit that you love me back

but we might be, like, on another planet
and all have, like, implants and whatnot

i don't know, maybe i am crazy

i keep feeling you at odd moments

but
it could be
that there's something wrong with me
i hurt my hand
i think i strained my old tendon tear
it's not torn
but it hurts
and i don't know how i could never have damaged it
in all these years
but now have done something to it

but
after it started to hurt
i noticed, with each ensuing box
that i put most of the weight on my left hand
and direct with my right

i've been feeling
alternating between and old lady and
superwoman
or maybe she-hulk
whatever

but
i'm not invincible
hence the hand scare
even if it was torn
all they did was splint it
and that was a specialist not a regular old doctor

if you really want to make me happy
don't just think of me as a source of amusement
then do something for me
send me images telepathically
you'll know what of, i think
because
my funk is starting to lift, i think
and i need a little sparkle in my holidaze

i'm having a stressful week

i wish
i could hug you
that would make it better, i think

goodnight
stillwater

i haven't said, but i've been feeling you

maybe
maybe you're missing me

i love you
i'm not trying to ignore you

be good
be happy
be wishing me luck

my little fortune cookie

i had kind of an old school dream

like i used to have

i was at some sort of event
maybe it was sports
but i remember
guys dressed like early beetles or monkees
climbing down rung ladders
and
maybe that was connected
so maybe it wasn't sports

anyway
right before it was going to start
i decided that i really had to pee
so
i went looking for a bathroom

i ran out past a hospital reception desk
down a hall
into a big, outdoor amusement park
the bathrooms were
of course, out of order

and this other lady
she says she's going to use the nursing room
and i go to wait for her to finish so i can go next
but suddenly
there are ten people in line ahead of me

this is what i got last night

i spent most of the dream
in various bathrooms
but
that didn't seem to be the main thing

the most important image
the one that sticks in my mind:

i'm looking in the mirror
and i guess
maybe i put on some makeup
my eyes are huge
i have cut my hair
it's kind of a pixie cut with fringe around my face
i am pretty thin too

i look in the mirror
and my eyes
are the kind of eyes
that lock into your soul

so, i don't know what you sent, but this is what i got

i was putting up road signs

like speed zone signs
like a lot of them
on one pole
the speed
it depended
on what kind of wine
i don't really understand that myself
what kind you're drinking while you're driving
or
what kind you'd typically buy

so
signs
wine
speed

then i had another dream
about a coffee shop
and i was going to grind the coffee
i looked on the brew calendar to find what to grind
but when i went to look
there was barely any coffee there
there was enough
but they seemed really low

but i found the two caffeinated kinds
and i grabbed two five pound silver bags
and decided to wait on decaf

so
coffee
but maybe
not enough coffee
and no decaf

tonight's reading

does he ever worry about me when i don't talk for a while:

http://www.facade.com/tarot/personal/?UID=104592&Date=11%2F4%2F2012&Name=Anonymous&Query=&Deck=voodoo&Reading=single

i don't know what that means, so one more time:

http://www.facade.com/tarot/personal/?UID=276365&Date=11%2F4%2F2012&Name=Anonymous&Query=&Deck=voodoo&Reading=single

ok, well that sounds like you don't worry, like at all
which might be good or bad
depending on what i mean by worry

so, can he sense when i am unhappy
when i got shit weighing me down
that's unrelated to him
but
which makes me unchatty

http://www.facade.com/tarot/personal/?UID=783711&Date=11%2F4%2F2012&Name=Anonymous&Query=&Deck=voodoo&Reading=single

i guess that means you know everything

i started to write you about my petty little problems
a couple of times already
but they just seem so lame
that i didn't post them

but
i am feeling very distant from you
except in dreams
and
even there
it's more like you're trying to get my attention
that that we're communicating

i'm sorry about that

that dream last night was like the beginning of
a much longer story
and it was funny and poignant with
people reaching out to others that they might normally reject
and it was all because the kinda boring mormon woman
she learned to cook the jewish food
to reach out to her ex-husband's ex-wife
it sound kinda hokey now
but it was a good dream
and
they've been, lately
like stories playing in my head
not like dramas i'm acting in

but
if you want to send me messages in my dreams
[does he]

http://www.facade.com/tarot/personal/?UID=108099&Date=11%2F4%2F2012&Name=Anonymous&Query=&Deck=voodoo&Reading=single

you might need to think them
really loudly
and keep them simple
[because there's a lot of static and interference in my brain]
images are probably best

what is he thinking about me right now:

http://www.facade.com/tarot/personal/?UID=784994&Date=11%2F4%2F2012&Name=Anonymous&Query=&Deck=voodoo&Reading=single

is that good, or bad

the mormon jewish catering company

a big, blue stained-glass window

checking in

i worked all day yesterday
and i have to go in today
plus, i have to see my mom
so
i haven't dropped off the face of the earth

i love you, sweet cream