i have been having these
really densely packed dreams
lots of symbolism
lots of information
weird and new
but
when i wake up
i can't remember them
for long enough
to record them
now maybe
that's because
i'm working things out
and i don't want to know all the details
or maybe
there's some other reason
i know they are vaguely upsetting in some way
as i'm waking up
i'm always thinking:
wow, i really need to think about that
now
i can still remember fragments
from last night's dream
so i'm trying to get them down, now
i'm not sure what order these things were in the dream
and i'm not sure if it matters
but here goes
the first thing i remember was i got a job as a waitress
but there was something odd about it
i was in a team with three other people
all of whom i knew from before
like maybe
the waitress thing was a cover job
and i was away somewhere
so my grandfather had to get my uniform for me
and i was worried that it wouldn't fit right
but it did
it was a dress
and that, at first, made me worry that it would be too short
especially since it had a vaguely cheerleaderish skirt
(like big box pleats)
but, in fact, it came to just below the knee
so not too bad
but it was white
so then i looked at what the rest of my group was wearing
the guys had black pants and jackets
the other girl had khaki pants and like a long sleeved
whatever you call those pullover izod-type shirts
so, i didn't like her get-up better
but my immediate reaction:
why am i the only one pants-less
and that's all i remember of that bit
there was another section
i'm in a language class
but i can't tell what the language is
and the instructor
there's something she really likes about the way i translate
but i'm not actually getting it right
which i don't really understand
if it's wrong
then what's so charming or whatever about it
and i'm talking to guys
who remind me of guys i knew in college
maybe a little bit like peter pfeiffer
(herr professor doktor)
who populated many many fantasies
circa 1990
the youngest absent-minded professor there ever was
with a wife who never spoke
who had actually lived for a few years in iowa
which i had not previously believed really existed
i mean, i know we see the primaries and all
but it always seemed such a strange place
exotic even
the whole midwest, really
that i didn't really believe it was there
until i had an eye witness
that's all i can remember from that part
in the last bit i remember
i was working on building a booth
for a huge outdoor festival
there were different sections
each a big loop
and this car drove up the road
and right down the dirt pathway
to the construction site
and i ran after their car screaming:
no no no no no no no no no no no no no no
finally i got their attention
and they stopped
you can't park here, i said, this area
this area is restricted to exhibitors
well, where am i supposed to park
says the driver/dad with a family full car
the only place in this area is the last entry
the one you just passed before this one, i say
but really it would be better to go back to the visitor's parking
you'll have better access there
no, he says, we want to park here
and if you don't want me to
then you can just get in the car and show me where this other parking is
and then you'll bring me back here, i ask getting into the car
no, he says, you can walk back, starting up the car and pulling out
but i don't have time for that
and beside WTF
and it's starting to rain
so i jump out of the car
and roll away on the grass at the side of the road
i have no idea what to make of all that
but they've all been kinda something like that recently
but then i can't remember them
it's driving me nuts
